Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform > CEDU / Brown Schools and derivatives / clones
CEDU- propheets
mikehunt:
what's naive?
shanlea:
What's not fair?
I realy feel CEDU was verbally and emotionally abusive as well as dishonest to the families. This was nurtured through the program. If you had no big dirt you had better come up with something. That whole "little girl" stuck in an oven did not ring any bells for me because the staff didn't give a crap about the state of my inner child. Also, when I am taking accountablity and working on something, as an individual, I just like straight talk not cedu terms and bs. My "inner child" was too busy freaking over those freaks to be worth mentioning.
mikehunt:
--- Quote ---On 2004-06-17 21:38:00, shanlea wrote:
"What's not fair?
I realy feel CEDU was verbally and emotionally abusive as well as dishonest to the families. This was nurtured through the program. If you had no big dirt you had better come up with something. That whole "little girl" stuck in an oven did not ring any bells for me because the staff didn't give a crap about the state of my inner child. Also, when I am taking accountablity and working on something, as an individual, I just like straight talk not cedu terms and bs. My "inner child" was too busy freaking over those freaks to be worth mentioning. "
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it's not fair to say that cedu was completely ineffective for everyone; cedu, indirectly, helped mold me into the militant fuck i am today... i might have never had to tap into my power like i did, had it not been for cedu (and my need to rebel as a survival instinct)
like i said, cedu might not have had honest motives, but that shouldn't take the value out of their werds (altho, for many, it does... the whole "little girl" concept is now anchored for you by the hate with which it was given to you. in straight terms: return to the state of innocence you once possessed; be carefree, worryfree, just free in general. live your life spontaneously [don't worry about what others are thinking of you and want you to do, it's not as important as your true essence being fully present in every present moment.]) you must be able to see past their bullshit and shed light on what you can in order to benefit from such an experience (otherwise, you're just wallowing in your misery of what a horrible experience it was.. every horrible experience has an equal positive charge (remember the pendulum?) which one you experience just depends on your focus; if you're too busy focusing on the horrors, you'll miss out on the valuable lessons, which were, in the end, much more valuable than your sad stories, don't you think?) a lot of cedu's little kitch-phrases were very powerful; a lot of the concepts they based their program on were very useful. the thing is, they messed up in execution because their heads and hearts were in the wrong places.
forget them as people... forget their methods of teaching you this stuff; in all honesty, they were awful teachers. but think of it like this: have you ever taken an academic class on a subject which you really enjoyed, but the teacher just pissed you off so badly and kind of crapped on your interest in the subject? maybe the teacher didn't even crap on your ineterest; maybe you just realized that the teacher wasn't doing your subject justice. it's not the subject's fault that the teacher was no good... thus, there's no need to stop studying history because you've had one awful teacher. (this is why i dropped out of skool... i can teach myself better than any academically trained teacher can teach me; i know how i function.)
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laura solomon
cedu vet. 1996-1999
RIP[ This Message was edited by: mikehunt on 2004-06-18 09:07 ]
CEDU IS A CULT:
What I find disturbing is that during cop out sessions, many kids admitted to molesting children.
By law this should have been reported!!
Mikehunt, you keep trying to look at the positive benefits of CEDU. That is so rebellious to be able to find those benefits after leaving. Myself? There were no redeemable qualities. There is no little kid. I think many on this site are still a little brainwashed. It was all just a bullshit fantasy. Just a bad dream. Can someone really look you in the eye, admit to fucking their neighbor's horse and then you tell them you accept them? Give me a break, I think it's just plain sick. Tim Brace even admitted to being a homosexual in a straight marriage. All I could think is get away from me you faggot.
Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.
-- Albert Einstein
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mikehunt:
--- Quote ---On 2004-06-18 13:41:00, Bryan Felsher wrote:
"What I find disturbing is that during cop out sessions, many kids admitted to molesting children.
By law this should have been reported!!
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molesting kids at the skool or at home?
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Mikehunt, you keep trying to look at the positive benefits of CEDU. That is so rebellious to be able to find those benefits after leaving. Myself? There were no redeemable qualities. There is no little kid. I think many on this site are still a little brainwashed. It was all just a bullshit fantasy. Just a bad dream.
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so, you think i'm brainwashed... i guess that's cool.. you're entitled to your opinions, but i hope you don't think they're absolutely correct; you don't know me, your opinions about me are based on your reflections of yourself and, inevitably, your ignorance (when it comes to your knowledge about me as a person.)
i've taken on my elements of brainwashing... the little bit that did seep in was a strong inclination to be confrontational and abrasive (a survival tactic... you get eaten alive if you cannot defend yourself) i have, however, spotted this, recognized its nature, and i fight it constantly (now, the inclination is diminishing.)
if i'm brainwashed, i don't know what kinda brainwashing cedu did... it must've been them programming themselves for self-destruction or something, because i'm dedicated to shutting them (and others like them) down.
it seems like you're so set on rebelling against this brainwashing that you get caught up in negativity. any positivity, you associate with this conception you have of being brainwashed. that sucks... i refuse to let something like cedu smut up and ruin my outlook on life. i refuse to hold my reflections on cedu to a different standard than those to which i hold my other reflections... EVERY situation has its up side and down side; cedu taught me tons about human nature and "social engineering". cedu made my life miserable for years, and out of that misery came something fabulous: me, the strong willed woman who's not afraid to go against the grain and defy the norms.
--- Quote ---Can someone really look you in the eye, admit to fucking their neighbor's horse and then you tell them you accept them? Give me a break, I think it's just plain sick. Tim Brace even admitted to being a homosexual in a straight marriage. All I could think is get away from me you faggot.
Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.
-- Albert Einstein
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ever heard of this thing called "forgiveness"? everybody does things in their lifetime that they're not too proud of.. i believe very strongly that everybody in the werld has done at least one thing that would make at least one other person scowl. it's not so important what you've done in the past as it is where you are now relatively. what if, one day, someone you loved with all your heart disclosed something like this (having fucked their neighbors horse) to you? you know in your heart that it was a disclosure that brought them tremendous pain (in thinking that you would reject them) and thus, it took an even more tremendous amount of courage to tell you... you never could've imagined that they would've done something like this because of the amount of growth between that time and the present. now, would you tell this loved one that they're a "sick fuck" and that you could no longer love them? if that's the case, i sure hope you'll allow yourself to open up your heart some more.
(that quote under your post is one of my favorites...)
chances are, you'll prolly disregard all of this by claiming that i'm a "brainwashed fool". let me give you another reason: I'M JUST A NASTY FUCKING DYKE.
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laura solomon
cedu vet. 1996-1999
RIP[ This Message was edited by: mikehunt on 2004-06-18 15:47 ]
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