Muhaha I am doing better..Plans are crystalizing..
I guess for years I have just kind of been..I dont know...like waiting for someting to happen..Sometimes I do wierd things like drive extra shitty with no seat belt on..
I am just...after about 13years realizing..That my issues arent really what I thought they were..
I feel like Im getting to the roots of my mind..and everything is starting to make more sense..and I am realizing that alot of things were set into motion for me..without my consent nor understanding..
I always thought I was just a fuck up...oh I am too..BUT Im not a fuckup for the sake of being a fuckup..
I have uncovered family issues..Straight issues..I am starting to understand why I do what I do...and what my motivations really are.
Its all coming full circle now...
And I think I have the answer...And this is the big one..Im either gonna push through or lose it for good..Im sorry I am so vague but it would take me 50 paragraphs to explain..
Hang in there guys and gals..Theres always a spot of light somewhere...find it..Must look past 10 feet in front of you..or you will trip..
