I got busted twice in 1996 ( 10 days apart)
for posession of cntrl sub... Had nasty 3 to 500 a day habit (tar heroin) I was out on bond and started taking methadone...well even just a few years ago they had what was called dose caps( like you cant get more than 60 mgs a day) and guess what? It didint help me...and I was labelled "hopeless" 60 was considered a blocking dose by the government..ok anyway I went to jail and served my time...got out and after failed marriage etc..lost my home, job , and a car to my ex wife (we worked together) I found myself homeless and alone and back on heroin again. After all when you go from having a home and a wife to sleeping in a park few things will comfort one like a thick shot of heroin.
Anyway I figured Id try the methadone out again.. well alot has changed in the last 5 years in MMT...the dose caps have been lifted now
at least in Texas..and the doctor encouraged me to keep raising my dose..60....80...100..finally I hit 170 and like a miracle I lost all craving for heroin...have had people shooting up in front of me offering it and I can turn it down...I have not had a needle in my arm in...since around january (year now almost).
What happened is the governments view changed thanks to activists. They now realise methadone is more effective at higher doses. Yes i still use cannabis ( laugh if you want but it is my anti depressant, and it doesnt give me fucked up side effects like Buspar, Lithium, etc) but thats it.Also since Straight I have suffered severe crippling anxiety....methadone also has gotten rid of that as a bonus side effect.
But on a side note there are still states where methadone treatment is not available...and addicts are dieing on daily basis. The state laws have lifted the ban on Meth clinics...butthe "communities" frown on it.
So they dont have those evil methadone clinics...but instead have trapped heroin addicts that have no option but cold turkey ( which is great in theory,,not!...until you try it) breaking into houses etc...its insane.
If there was no methadone I would be dead...I have no doubt in my mind..
I went to the hospital last X mas day because I had missed a veign in my stomach and it had gotten infected...the doctor gave me no topicalanasthetic after he found out it was missed heroin shot...and began to work on me...I was screaming in pain and he went on about the evils of drugs as he dug a scalpel into my stomach.....Things must change...
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