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justonemore:
NoneYa..(everybody's a critic)
Yeah, I know, it sounds fantastic, it sounds concocted. even to me many days. Let me tell you though, that every day you've 'met the dead guy" or had to face Bugs Bunny with a knuckle knife and a pair of nun-chaku and a an ashtray full of roach and you without a firearm,( not that you'd want to kill the guy, but you'd sure like to be able to.) is a hard day. It makes for a lousy "Hi honey how was your day." Not supportive of relationships or normal life in any sense.My last year in the business I ran 53 calls between 5pm Christmas eve and midnight Christmas day. Not a nurturing life style. ( I'm not a nurturing guy, so I reckon it's alright.)
I'm an autodidact, so I have the temerity to say so. Only an autodidact would.
Jeez, I can hear you not laughing, what a tough house!
Just as the seed put me beyond the pale of common experience, so my occupational experience took me farther from that pale. By the time I got to college, i was already decades older than my peers. Although academically I did well, socially I was a failure. College is not for academics any more, it's primarily a social engine. I didn't succeed in that venue.
These days I've come to believe more and more in the wisdom of Nature.
"There are Ice-floes for Polar Bears, and dark wood for brown bear,and toy shops for teddy bears" Yeah?
J.O.M.

justonemore:
Thanks stack. Your response prompted me so here goes.
A) History (Aint fer sissies, no how!)
I began to smoke marijuana as a young adolescent, it was all the rage, 'tres' chic' what adololscent wouldn't be attracted to an idealogy that promised peace and love and eternal hipness?
B) it wasn't long before I saw the awful hypocrisy in the drug world, it was the time of the advent of wholesale cocaine, and I saw many of the peace and love hippies become psychotic criminals. Not what I signed up for. (it would be years before i learned that cocaine and it's derivatives not only amplify latent psychosis, they produce psychosis!) ( odd historical note; The Nazis developed methamphetamine in their quest for  a super soldier, and Hitler's doctors injected him 5 times daily with low-dose meth. No wonder he was so...energetic!)
C) At the time, I knew a pilot for Southern Air Transport.. Most everyone in Miami knows about them. He often would take business trips and bring me back bottles of Ron Matuselem, and boxes of Partagas.. yep.. once a Bottle of Ma'ma'Juana... the real ones. I also worked at Dodge Island, on the docks then, and got to know some customs inspection officers. They just loved hasseling the hippie kid, and I fought back, so we began conversation.
D)I began to see that there were powerful interests promoting the drug trade, and that they meant no-one well. Governments were involved, including our own. It was a smoke and mirrors world, your life and  mine meant nothing.( see Castro and Robert Vesco)
E) What happened then?  In the years since, I met and worked with a task force officer from here-abouts, and he informs me that the Marijuana of today is 60-70x more powerful than the dope we (he and I) smoked as kids. Not a benign animal, no, not benign at all.
I began to see that there were powerful and entrenched interests who promoted drug use and drug rehab. it's a Hobbe's choice. Social engineering through indiscriminate drug use, or through Behaviour Mod and thought contrrol. Viewed from a distance , to me it don't look a hell of a lot different than the idealogy that produced Hitler and Mao and Lenin, and all their like.
F) Sick of the whole mess, I quit. Spent my time in the woods, went to college, studied religion ( sounds dull but actually it were funnner than hell!)
G) ( If it wasn't for the alphabet song, I'd be lost) Then, after I'd quit, was I sent to the seed. A brand new education, a brand new world of hate. There I saw Kids who were fragile beaten down for what? To form a a worshipful cadre for barker.
H) Barker was in my opinion a dupe, a front, a sock-puppet for more powerful interests. Like to know who they are.
        In Summation ( yeah I know that's tedious, but what else do I say ? )
I am not against "drugs" per se'. i've seen people destroyed by drugs, but I've also seen one or two saved.
No Answers Here.
J.O.M.

justonemore:
In retrospect:
That wasn't terribly clear. the time-line I mean. Apologies. A) I quit dope. boredom, don't ya know.. and disgust. B) I entered 'el Mundo'
En' este Mundo, el no 'que whele, Fuma! that was the code of my world B) Got tired of that, went to college, went hunting, went fishing along the St. Marks.
saw dolphin and whale, deer, hog, turkey, gopher. God, How i love this LAND.
quit again.
went into management

justonemore:
My Aologies for the previous disjointed post. I got called out mid-thought. Hate that, hate that. It's never life -and- death-jump- and- run unless it's A) 6am monday morning and I've had guests, or B) 6pm friday evening, and I've nefarious schemes planned, orC) the middle of a cold rainy night, and one or another moron has nought to do but Panic!
However, they pay me well.

Change of topic... Like to share  thoughts on captivity, confinement,indoctrination and aftermath.. this because I had a hell of an interesting conversation with a man recently.
His experience was military/para, mine was not. Compare notes? Ain't asking for confession, just insight.
J.O.M.

Susan Stone:
I heard being a fisher mans friend was way cooler then being an  :roflmao:  :rocker:  :rofl:  :whip: American Legions  friend.... just saying....

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