Kinda why ina way I hate playin out anymore,get them alone ina crowd things rollin around my head and end up drunker than fuck. Better off mostly by myself,playin in my kitchen. I grew up like that when I was real young,not a lot of tv,mostly listenin to the radio, playing one thing or the other...no headaches(unless my mom got into the act) . better times.sort of.
As far as a freinds with bennys thing goes ,that usually goes sideways too,one person wants more than the other.I just love the term fuckbuddies,cracks me up it does. Can you introduce someone as a fuckbuddy? like,"aunt rose,this is my fuckbuddy,cheryl........."or whomever....gotta love the english language. I had a fuckbuddy for a while,we still cross paths socially from time to time ,just dont fuck anymore. Only reasons she and I never went past fuckbuddy are this.
Shes fucking abrasive as hell,deliberatly rude.Nasty to people for no real reason. now we could go mountain bike like a mofo,get all sweaty,and grimy drink some and fuck like rabid monkeys.but we cant stand each other,except for in small doses. that and I know better than to get emotionally attached to a bisexual woman...the seamus university o hard knocks taught me that. The whole man/woman thing mostly escapes me anyhow,sometime I think Im bulletproof like "please what you gonna do to me aint already been done" other times I debate If I really want anybody anyways,if it even worth the effort.
Maybe I really AM a fuckin' snake-in -the -grass, fuck I dunno. I like when folks say shit like "you just havnt met the right woman yet" its all i can do not to call em stupid. Its like puuuhhlleeese,spare me that tired shit......talk to me like I been fuckin strippers for 30 odd years or somethin........I got no legitimate answers for my own situation,either Ill find what Im lookin for or I wont....