...The second you pretended to go along with the program; the minute you decided to "fake it" until you could run, you made yourself open and vulnerable to brainwash. As soon as you began to just pretend you took the fatal sip.
A very astute observation Pirate. And a fascinating thread that follows, its one of those threads with substance, something we can sink our teeth into. This helps evaluate, look deeper within. Sure the eyes were designed to look outward, but they can be directed to look within as well and yet so many of us, not just Survivors but the population in general seem prone to limiting thier own knowledge of themselves. And the many contributors to this thread have made some awesome observations of thier own.
I first read your original post when it was posted, and I thought to myself, "Pirate has done good!" and since then I have seem the other contributors and thought, "Well hell, they have done good as well!" and I asked myself. "What could I contribute? Why should I contribute to an already facinating read?" Then this morning I re-read the thread (slow sunday morning and all). Again, I was captivated by your opening remarks. I wondered if I was struck due to the fact I know you, I have met you, you welcomed me into your home, we broke bread together. I thought of your vast collection of books, which struck me the moment I saw them and subsequenetly never forget the well rounded library.
Per usual, my mind continued to think. Half ass reading the thread (waiting for coffee to brew), I read the post (Forgive me, I forgot who wrote it) that made reference to the distrust of anything "New Agey". This stopped my train of thought, infact I jumped tracks and began another thought stream, which seemed to have two lanes heading in the same direction.
The first lane of the thought stream was of my own experiance. I too was a staunch anti-religious, card carrying Athiest and it used to bring great joy to bring religious folks to tears while arguing, knowing I was weaking thier resolve. I was dating a Wiccian at the time and I recall a conversation inwhich I was gloating over a recent arguement with a christian. She was very kind, but firm. She looked me in the eyes, without berating me, she simply asked, "What right do you have to take someones hope, thier faith from them when obviously it helps hold them together?" I was stunned into silence, I could find no counter argument.
The 2nd lane in the thought stream was the song by The Who; The Seeker
I've looked under chairs
I've looked under tables
I've tried to find the key
To fifty million fables
chorus:
They call me The Seeker
I've been searching low and high
I won't get to get what I'm after
Till the day I die
I asked Bobby Dylan
I asked The Beatles
I asked Timothy Leary
But he couldn't help me either
chorus
People tend to hate me
'Cause I never smile
As I ransack their homes
They want to shake my hand
Focusing on nowhere
Investigating miles
I'm a seeker
I'm a really desperate man
I won't get to get what I'm after
Till the day I die
I learned how to raise my voice in anger
Yeah, but look at my face, ain't this a smile?
I'm happy when life's good
And when it's bad I cry
I've got values but I don't know how or why
I'm looking for me
You're looking for you
We're looking in at each other
And we don't know what to do
chorus
This was my song. In that, it said everything I thought, have done and my core being was articulated in the lyrics of the song.
And then a fork developed in my thought stream, which brought me back to your original post and I instantly recalled what a Monk told me a while back and it made soo much sense and I saw why I was so attracted to your original post. The Monk and I were discussing my rage and he made the statement, "
The moment you comprimize your values, anger and rage most follow." I rembered it, because I thought it a witty, but very true statement. However The importance/relevance (if only to myself) of this statement has grown and grown.
Then I realized I was reading your opening statement thru the filter of the statement the Monk had said. And it was one of those Ahhhh-Haaaa moments. Something clicked tween my ears...However, I am not quite sure what that "click" was, nor do I have a firm grip on what it is I realized, it is certainly beyond my ability to articulate it as of yet, which as you know troubles me. Yet perhaps it is just as well, I neednt have all the answers...I think it far more important to have questions, probing questions, disturbing questions, questions that bring my mind to that silence I spoke of. The silence for me has two meanings, A) A profound sense of I DONT KNOW... B) A profound sense I have heard a TRUTH
Also, I find it fascinating that you compose 42 words which has effected so many thought streams. Well done my friend!
Om Shanti
Continued Healing
Woof
PS: You did get my phone message?