111dear try another.. it ain;t your heart i'm concerned about, it's your faith. You say you graduated from program not long ago. well, I "graduated" from my program more than 30 years ago, and still i compensate for their influence. be careful of their influence on you.You indicate that you are jewish ( you also indicate that you personally, killed christ.. two things A) could you share your health secrets, cause if your really a roman, you've got something! B) what is it that you think christians hate jews? Long as we are at it, I was trained by a man who was ex- former, sorta kinda. not really not so as you'd know I.D.F., special forces, Mossad, but not really, shin bet kinda guy. do you think i don't know? really truly' sorta kinda maybe but not really, as to testify or depose don't really know.. well, I kinda sorta do.
Here's the thing.. in my bible and yours, i am abjured from judging you.. God may speak to me ( currently he doesn't) but if he does, he will speak to me about me, not about you. Presumably, if he needs to speak to you, he will speak to you about you and not about me. What could i matter to you, anyway? We do however, matter to each other, in great and small ways, and this is the is crux. We must not harm one another, and for humans, that's near impossible. Therefore the requirement for forgiveness. So, I shall ask yours, and i shall ask that you offer your forgiveness, first to yourself, then to others.