This thread is givin me NIGHTMARES. Brings me back to an absolutely horrendous time.swear to god I get pains in my stomach from thinking about this shit.
reminds me of how much I hated my mother.and why I cant keep a relationship,and my fucking failure to trust anything.Why I am such a jealous prick.
My wife is divorcing me,I m probably gonna lose my dogs and a lotta$$$$$. Once I cool off IM taking a road trip.Goddamn am I disgusted.
Yo, Seamus...I am with ya on the nightmares. And also the day-mares. I can also see how my relationshits have suffered horribly. The kick in the head, aside from, simply poor descions I have made, most of those bad descions are based on emotional strife which I can trace directly back to....you know where.
I have already re-hashed all the stuff I know of GEORGE ROSS, and would rather not continue to pick at the scar tissue left over from that time period. I am not one to bury my head in the sand, nor am I one to deny/repress the realities of the nightmares. But I think I have enuff wits about me to know when to leave well enuff alone. I said my piece way back when this thread started. Anything I would say now would only be redundant.
The one redeming thing about this whole shit storm is that during my "interview" process. I directly addressed those issues I discussed earlier in the thread. I thought (pardon the expression), that I "had my shit in one sock"...I was astonished at the uncontrolable sobbing that flowed out of me, not unlike explosive emotional diahrrea. And ya know what, I got no regrets. Someone asked me if I was concerned with reprisal, via defamation of character comming from George Ross. Pfft! I will gladly stand/sit in any court room USA and swear, attest, affirm or otherwise tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. Now, if this cretin is concerned about defamation of his character.....Perhaps he should make an effort to build some character, so that it could be defamed in the first place. Other wise, the truth would be like scortching sunlight....the best deodorant known to man kind.
Oddly, I am not infused with anger and or hatred. I have come to some peace with the worst George Ross had to deal out. I have connected with the ones he harmed directly. I have made my amends ( for my actions...directed by George Ross) and they were graciously accepted. All thats left is for GEORGE ROSS to make his amends/apologies,or defend himself. Personally, I think he is too much of a chicken shit to examine the destruction he inflicted on scores of young people...who are now full grown adult individuals.As I have said before, I may be discredited...a few others may be able to discredited...But they can NOT discredit all of us!
Much Peace
Continued Healing
woof/dave