Well I wish they didn't try and fix me in straight. It is the anniversary of when I went in and am having PTSD bad, as if the holidays are not stressful enough...no wonder I hated this time of year for the longest time but just recently (15 yrs later) realized why?? What unbelievable damage and I have no words just saddness and irritability. But where are those pple now who tryed to 'help me' I could use some real help now! I just don't know how to trust any help or where it would come from.
Start smoking marijuana, or eating marijuana-containing foods. Marijuana has been clinically shown to reduce PTSD symptoms. These findings aren't widely publicized in our nation because they conflict with the government's official stance on marijuana, i.e. that it is an illicit 'drug' and that it has no medical or therapeutic value. However, many people all over the world have used, and continue to use marijuana therapeutically and medically, by prescription and as a traditional medical practice, in addition to the number who use it recreationally.
After you've begun to regularly smoke marijuana, and the PTSD sympoms have noticeably decreased, you can begin to deal with and develop coping strategies for recovering from the damage and understanding the causes of (and finding alternatives to) the feelings of sadness and irritability. The holidays suck anyway, and having to deal with the shit we went through, and its fallout in our lives, makes an already taxing time that much more stressful. Light up and
lighten up. Trust your instincts, not the bullshit they told you in Straight. Avoid the tendency to over analyze your thoughts and feelings. That shit they told you in Straight is just jive......it doesn't help you cope with the real world or your thoughts or emotions or anything like that---it just was a means of them exercising control over your thinking during the times you weren't in group or immersed in Straight
culture.
I suppose there are pharmaceutical drugs, antidepressants and such, that could probably give you some kind of relief from the sadness and the PTSD and all.........BUT:
THE SIDE EFFECTS OF THOSE KINDS OF DRUGS CAN BE DANGEROUS TO YOU AND OTHERS.
Marijuana, on the other hand, has killed no one during the thousands of years it has been used.
Sometimes it helps us, psychologically, to get a little 'jump start' out of a depression or some kind of trauma. Marijuana is a safe and effective means of doing
'just' that.