Awake wrote:
....Just a little something to finish this off. If you have been to Cedu and don't believe they have associated your emotional triggers with their programming let me ask you a few questions.
What's your lie?
What does your little kid look like?
How are you using your Brothers?
What's your nightmare?
How are you choosing death?
What's your thinking telling you?
Admit it. You can't help but be mentally sent inwards. You understand what the questions are asking when anyone else on the street would not have a clue how to respond.
Hi, Awake. If you don't mind my asking, what might be typical answers to questions like these? How do I, um, decode this to better understand it?
Auntie Em
That’s a pretty complex answer… but I’ll try the first one.
Think about the worst thing you’ve ever done or worst thing you think about yourself, and it has to be the absolute last thing you would ever tell anybody about. Are you thinking about it? well, that’s not the one, there’s something else…more… more…don’t cheat yourself out of this… keep going… no that’s not it, which one is it you can’t say outloud? ok what’s that right there? Ok that’s it, you’ve got it. Describe it. How bad does it feel? Now think about what others might be saying about you for it. What are they calling you? Now pick the word(s) that hurt the most. What is that word? That is your lie.
It’s a good question actually, because giving an answer to someone who does not know makes me realize that the question is metaphorical, and therefore one posed to the unconscious mind. Typically you would hear, “How are you living your lie?” Translated to a direct question it would be asking, “What is it about your actions that are contributing to your negative beliefs about yourself?” However the question is deeper than that, because it is a trigger word associated with the worst feelings and judgements you have about yourself. If you were being confronted on even the most minor of infractions, such as breaking bans (communicating w/ someone you’re not allowed to), the question would be asked. “What does that say about your choices? Are you living your Truth or your Lie?” of course you could not answer that you were living your Truth because you broke an agreement and therefore made a bad choice, so you were living your lie. So within a group the question was understood metaphorically, but your “Lie” was also a trigger word associated with the emotion (shame, fear, guilt) that was attached to your worst judgement as linked to the confession. And then another “tool” in the Truth propheet was that “to the degree you feel your sorrow is to the degree you feel your joy.” Meaning that when you felt bad you were supposed to give into the feeling. Essentially they encouraged students to focus, on and therefore magnify, their emotions.
From then on it is a chain reaction.
Your little kid (the perfect you) looks as though he/she is suffering from the pain of forcing the judgement of your lie on him/her because of your decision. A staff might ask "What does your little kid want to say to you right now?" and a fairly common reply would be, "Stop fucking up you peice of shit!"
You can’t be a friend (use your brothers) because a good friend can only look out for others if they are taking care of themselves. You are betraying them or "turning your back."
You are creating your nightmare (worst possible life outcome) over your dream.
And you are choosing the pain of death instead of instead of the joy of life…….etc. etc.
It is all black and white with the tools.
