Marika,
I also understand what you are saying - just be positive in life and know that those fuckers can never touch you again . . .literally.
When I escaped it was so strange being in public places like restaurants.
I felt like all these people are eating and drinking and they are all looking at me and judging me.
It took along time before I could simply enjoy sitting by myself in a bar or res. and drink/eat and watch a ball game.
Only people who have been through an ordeal like us can understand.
Beer and wine they were drinking with their Italian food - EVIL says Straight.
I can't believe Straight actually wanted everyone to declare that we would never drink alcohol again!
Yea, right. I couldn't even say that when I was 17 - I refused even though the upper phaseres constanly screwed with me.
Sure, I will never drink a beer even if I'm hanging at the lake with my best friends when I'm 100 years old.
Give me a fucking break!
I don't know how we fix things.
That's a big one.
Just be happy, enjoy life and know that there are other people out here who went through the same Hell . . .and that we are there to share out experience and get it off our chest.
Also, that some of us are active in lobbying in States all around the nation against these organizations, in order to SHUT THEM DOWN.
Future generations should not have to live with the memories that we will never foget.
Peace and happiness to you. :grin:
David
M.I.A.
Straight Richardson, Tx. 88/89