Healing is the very best 'revenge' available...
when we become whole, we take away the impact of what was done.
AND we STOP the harm from the Roloffs from going any further on...like saying , "The Lies and Abuse adn Falseness stop here with me!! I choose to deal with it not pretend it aint there"
work on healing...work for wholeness and the ability to make sure we dont pass the abuses on to the next generation.
its not the past that is need of healing, it is the present in need of healing.
if you had been in an accident 10 years ago and your bones got broken, but you never healed properly, you would not be able to function at the same ability had you of not ever been broken. But say, 10 years down the road you find in front of you a chance to redo that and heal properly. why would you rather go on in the distorted healing and not seek for the correct healing? why go thru life a cripple leaning on things to get on thru, when one can redo it all?
its not the past that needs healing, it is the present that is in need of help.
to sit and say, well that happened 10 years ago, and i dont let teh past affect me, well, howdy doody aint you so brave! lookie here.....you are hobbling round like a cripple and refusing to acknowlege that someone hurt you. why? why is it that so many survivors dont want to so called "blame" those who hurt them? i always scatch my head and wonder why?
ok, they accept that the broken bones is thier own doing, well, i disagree with that, there are reasons, always reasons, and it is not a blame game at all, but it is a reality situation of what is broken adn needs repair and healing. period, it aint about retribution, it aint about looking in the past,
IT IS ABOUT THE PRESENT TENSE AND THE HEALING THAT IS YELLING OUT TO BE HEALED.
if your car got broken down, say because the guy at the auto place did you wrong, cause he was out to get more money out of the deal he cut with you on doing your engine job....say, you are now stuck on the road and your engine aint doing what the guy said it should...you find out the coming week that he lied to you, and did you wrong...
now well, dont blame the turd, k? just gloss over it and smile and say, "It was my own fault, i chose that automachanic, cant blame him for what i chose to do"
see how idiotic that is? it is idiotic to not lay the wrong at the right door,
you see? he promised something, HE PROMISED you a new and fixed engine that would do its job,
same with Roloff, Roloff PROMISED things, and he did it dirty, he robbed, and he sold us girls to make his own pockets fat. And his disciples carry on his tradition.
but, according to some survivors, the bad things happened but it aint the fault of none but ourself...
THAT IS A LIE
a LIE
sorry...go think about it, why were you put there in roloffs? why?
for me it was because i was severely depressed and had cut my arm. the reason? there is a real reason behind my depression and suicide attempt....
the REASON that is REAL and true is that i was reacting to a real situation of sexual abuses on my person.
THAT is the truth, now ....did i deserve to be locked up and behind locked doors, cemented windows, alarms, a gaurd tower, chain link fenceing with barbed wires? beaten till i bled for trying to talk or call out for help? lockedinot solitary confinement for day cause i had tried in vain to do someting to gain me real help?
there is a justice in calling what is black, black adn what is grey grey....what is white white, adn what is blue blue,
but dont dangit call a blue a red!!! or red a blue!!!
heal in the presetn,you will know if you need it by the amount of pain you have in your life..the pain taht you swallow pills for, the pain that keeps you bound into prisons of self harm, the pain that keeps you swallowing down the liquour and or addictied to pornogrpahy...
the PAIN is in PRESENT TENSE@!@ not PAST TENSE!@!
there is a difference