Wow...this has gotten creepy. I'm not the timid easily manipulated little girl I was in Straight. I've had a stroke, gotten out of brain surgery three times, and I have epilepsy now....I am a damn strong person living with the day to day trials. But I swear, when I start reading some of the things Cesar is saying, my asshole quivers. Yuck. Some people are just twisted. It just goes to show that Straight messed up some peole more than others. Or maybe he was just a bad seed. That whole thing about calling his host home Aushewitz (sp?) is so messed up. I am German, and I lived in Germany for a while. I couldn't even bring myself to visit a place where people had no concept of the preciousness of life. It's easy to get mad about it, but why waste my time? I feel pity. I'll pray for you, C.