"I found your post about as useful as wet toilet paper after eating soap"
Wow, that must have been quite the experience for you....
"You still failed to answer why you had to go out of your way to mention how quiet it was followed by things you knew would stir things up. I still am wondering why you made such a big deal about the silence? It makes me wonder if you have some other reason besides posting your opinion and experience with people. Do you find yourself helpful?"
The reason I mentioned the silence, was because I find it interesting. simple fact, no other reason. I don't know if I would say I find myself helpful, but I do put questions into peoples minds and to an extend make them think possibly diffently or twice about what is being said. Maybe thats helpful, its up to how the person sees it or takes its.
I never said I thought MMS was 100% wonderful 24, 7 but I did find it helpful. I don't think many girls would be here today, fighting for regulation in boarding schools if they hadn't gone to MMS....how many girls knew of boarding schools like MMS before attending MMS. I didn't. I was very very young yes, but I had never heard of a theraputic boading school. There were the few girls that had signed themselves in and were sorry later, and I did stop to think about the reality of the school at that time, but like ive said many times before,(and i know its not an exuse) I knew no other way.
I am not the girl many of you knew at MMS, yes I do have my PMS moments, but I am far from the B that you knew.
The reason I laughed at the anon post, was mostly becuase of what I have been going through with my family at the moment. I go through my life and I try not to judge others, becuase you never know what they are going through,....anon, you might want to do the same. Its been more than a painful process with my mom so be a little bit less forward when it comes to mom issues, and my reaction wont be so far misunderstood. I have been overly busy with school, and two jobs, and hopped on the site for a sec, and yes my mom has forgotten to hug me for years, thanks for asking......
I do see the purpose of this site, but I don't see the point of going over and over and over and over and over every little thing,...and turning thoughts negative that don't need to be.
We all still struggle with the 'aftermath' of an experience such as MMS, and I have had others worse since MMS,I think being raped it far worse than anything I had to go through there. I would give anyhting to have it all back if I didn't have to relive the day I was raped. Esp becuase it was my first time....
As for the 'aftermath' of MMS, I still to this day question every little thing that I do, is that good? or is that bad? who knows....
there is no handbook and rules on life, so why should there be when it comes to different peoples opionions???
Even though our opinions differ so much, I will always love each and every person that was a part of my experince, and as part of who I am as person I will never turn them down, or act supirior (see I can't spell it) to them, they need me....Im there. And that is how I am with each and everyone of my freinds to this current day.
Once again, I am not the same B many of you have known.