Quite the Contrary. I find that I am submissive and apologetic to a great degree. I find that I fear confrontation too much and there for give in, back down, or get walked on. I wasn't an oldcomer often when I was in there. I was one of the people who got screamed at - alot. BUT! What you are going through makes so much sense to me. You know, the fact that you see it is a miracle. I know people who have been through what we have (the program, cult, whatever you want to call that joke of an experience) who never got a chance to see the true damage it did to them, the ways it formed them, etc.,...you see it. That says to me A.) you are a kind, decent person who does not enjoy being argumentative. B.) Your intelligent. and C.) It's probably not as serious as you think. No matter what the case, your recognition of the damage the place has done to the person you truly are is a sign that you are so far removed from the brainwashing of the place, and that you're own mind is what rules you know, is what is predominate. Good for you! Now, this is just my take on the whole thing. I'm no expert on deprogramming or the inner workings of the human psyche. So, have a nice day, you're alright.
