Thank you. I was Hell on earth.
I didn't really know until recent years that the late 70s to early 80s Straights under Miller Newton, were considered the worst and most abusive.
I recall arguements from people who were in later programs, especially in the 90s, trying to tell us we were crazy, that all these horrible things didn't happen, the programs weren't *that* bad. Turns out we were all correct. They hadn't realized the torment the kids in the earlier years had been through.
It's been 25 years and I still sometimes have nightmares, panic attacks, memory flashes... it was a part of my life I wish I COULD take enough drugs to forget.