That's because you are mentally ill Arthur. Forty something year olds just don't talk about stuff like that. I could understand if you were in your teens- early twenties, but mid forties??
We all know you are gay by now, it's no longer a secret. We also don't hold it against you, in todays world, anythings possible.
Why don't you at least try for one single day to focus your energy on Elan, they are the top subject here. Maybe if you start to use this site for what it's worth, you would see this place as a whole new different experience.
We're all lured to this board for one reason, that reason be Elan. I've read stuff by you in the past where as you complained about the focus is always on other people vs Elan. Well you are the one who is holding everything back and keeping the focus off Elan and on other people believe it or not. I think you purposely enjoy causing distruption at this board, you sure do keep the ball of disruption rolling day by day, month after month, year by year, ect.
And where has all this brought you in life? Nowhere.. You continue to make yourself the head topic here in a bad way, and they all are laughing at you, not with you. If I were you, and thankfully I am not, I would take a break from fornits and rethink my life.