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cleveland:
Wow, I've been punked. Pretty clever to lift John's words and substitute christian/VCA - but what's the point?
Rae's post was so sincere and heartfelt, it seems really rank to riff on it like that...
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Antigen:
--- Quote ---On 2006-04-20 17:42:00, GregFL wrote:
"Well Ginger, in all situations there is good. Had we not been childhood victoms of this treatment modality, we would not be friends today. It is nice to have someone just to call once in a while and shoot the bull with.
So, I guess in a way the Seed gave me Ginger. This is one thing I guess I can thank the Seed for.
Thanks Art!
:grin: "
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That's about the sweetest thing I've seen. I'm thankful for finding you too.
There's another treasure I've gotten from all of this, too. It's not one everybody would want. In fact, many people who got it take pills or therapy to try and make it go away.
The Program is a potent slice of something toxic that's creeping slowly but steadily into broader society. I got a keen scent of it along w/ a healthy alergy to it. Without that, I'd probably be taking pills to make that all go down painlessly because I wouldn't be able to name it or address it.
We ought to be grateful that our government monopoly schools are such a failure. If today's 18 year olds could do arithmetic, they'd be out buying enough rope to hang everybody over 40.
--Alan Handleman on Social Security
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landyh:
--- Quote ---On 2006-04-19 07:35:00, cleveland wrote:
"Marc,
I too feel the need to think and talk about the Seed quite a lot, after keeping it buried for many, many years.
These are the people who, at least for a while, wanted to talk about this experience and reconnect. I am aware that there are others, many many others, who would just rather not talk about it. I think because it confuses them, they are not ready to deal with ambivalent feelings, or perhaps anger, or other disturbing emotions. They prefer to remember vaguely that it was tough but they did it, and maybe they're better of for it, or maybe not, but the past is the past.
For whatever reason, I needed to dredge it all up and have a look at it...
W"
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You really captured my feelings with the above. I came here looking to connect with past seedlings and thinking that overall my experience wasn't all that bad. But the truth is really a bit more complex than that. Being able to look at it in an open-minded way has brought out the fact that my feelings are much more ambivalent than I originally thought. That ambivalence or to put it another way not really being able to make up my mind about how I really feel was the genesis of this sick feeling I sometimes get in the pit of my stomach when I come here. The realization that my occasional lack of confidence in regard to my own core feelings may be the result of what happened to me at the seed is disturbing to say the least. I stopped coming here for a little while because of it. Thanks for capturing so well what many of us go through in attempting to resolve our experiences there.
Ft. Lauderdale:
Eudora.
I thought you were going to say you needed to start taking penicillin :scared:
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