Anyone who knows what a "real" addict is would know from the get go the girl was a mere wanna-be while in Elan.
Why is what people wondered. There were no "real hardcore"
addicts in that house during that time period. No one to impress.
Oh well, she thought it was so freakin "glamourous" to stick a needle in her arm so be it then.
Atleast I survived it all...During and after Elan..
You have a good point but what I am trying to say about Tracy is what is the difference between wanting and planning to go back to that junkie lifestyle after Elan and actually being a hard core junkie? When you're locked up in Elan not much, except maybe 18 months.
When I was in Elan I planned on returning to my old lifestyle too, and when I left I did just that. Only Elan did teach me something...don't get caught!! But then again I was never into "H" so I got away with the partying I did. That shit will stop you dead in your tracks. Anyone who does it and keeps doing it has a death wish.
I hear ya, I always wondered why she had an "obsession" with people who were Heroin addicts. Kinda weird. I heard all kinds of crazy stuff about her after Elan and I was like "WHOA" why is she so hellbent on being a junkie?! Her life with her family was not bad at all. She was the one who decided to be a "good girl gone bad". She was not from a fucked up abusive home at all. Some in Elan came from fucked up places and ended up going back to fucked up places.
I hope she found what she was lookin for before she died.
I hope all the days of selling her soul to get a wake up made her glad she thought junkies were "totally cool".
It pisses me off when I see people who have families and a place to live and a chance in life only to throw it all away when there are people out here that struggle and shed blood, sweat and tears to get what comes so fucking easily to others.
Oh well, I guess you can't TRULY cherish things that come to you so easily.
Why should you have to? afterall if you lose something or get in trouble or need help it is usually one easy phone call away.
I saw a few in Elan dressed in rags and that got no mail or packages and were watching people get cartons of food delivered on a refridgerated truck to them by their mommy because the Elan food was "yukky". Christ, is that your biggest issue in life at the age of 16?
Or box's of nice clothing, etc. It was hard for them to not feel resentfull when they saw said person abusing the people that gave them all of these comforts.
Life is never going to be easy. I wish I could take away all of the "comforts" people take for granted and give them to people that appreciate every little thing they get.
That don't scowl at a tag that says "Walmart" instead of "The Gap".
That type of shit is crazy. I'd rather have "Walmart" than nothing at all.