I can think of a few things I never learned in Straight or the Seed.
I've gained some valuable insight from talking to ppl who have been there and in similar programs, learning more about the history and affilitions of those programs and what they're up to in other, related areas of endevour.
One thing I realized somewhere along the line is what I think Guest meant here:
On 2006-03-28 20:57:00, Guest wrote:
"Perhaps you came to the realization that deep down you don't like hanging out with a bunch of phonies all the time."
I went the other way. I'm a hold out. I have none of those things you say, cept a decent immediate family. Haven't spoken with the proud Seedlings in a number of years and am not fortunate enough to have surviving grandparents or other extended family.
So, while I don't think I'd call myself
the quintessential loser at any point in my life (some will dissagree, surely, but fuck `em LOL) but marginal would certainly be a good adjective. But why? People tell me I'm smart and school was easy. Was pretty attractive till I started getting old. Maybe I rightly owe some long term difficulty to the mind warping effects of Program life and what it has done to my family. But, come on now! 20+ years?
Then I thought about the specific reasons why I left various jobs or walked away from social situations. Looking back, sometimes it was my own dumb assed mistake; something I would do differently if I had it to do over again. But most of the time, no. Most of the time it's been a wholesome, healthy aversion to so many different kinds of fucked up behavior due to over exposure to it in the Program.
The difference between me and your typical yuppie, as far as those things go, is that I have an extremely low threshhold for certain types of bullshit which, unfortunately, our modern culture mistakes for normal. Shit, I'd be depressed as a mother fucker too if I tried to keep those associations!
Of all the enemies to public liberty, war is, perhaps, the most to be dreaded because it comprises and develops the germ of every other.
--James Madison