A number of people have posted about having nightmares years after CEDU. I myself have recurring dreams where I am sent back to CEDU (and I am way over the age for this!)and I'm trying to talk my way out but no one will listen. So I end up trying to make the staff understand how fucked up the program is, but it's like talking to robots, who keep saying I'm the one who's fucked up, and I will be there "for the duration." So then, I make my rounds amongst the students telling them to escape, get out while they can, they are being brainwashed. Everyone is too afraid to buck the system, and I end up trying to plot an escape with Stepford students watching my every move.
Last night I had a dream that I was at a hotel convention with my mother(as an adult)and some CEDU/RMA staff members show up with their flock of students. Somehow, they find out I post on Fornits and are furious about what I have to say about the program. In front of my Mom and other students, I list the failures of the program, which the staff and students refute. They then attempt to tell my mother that everything I said was bullshit, and recommend she get me some "help."
There is always a sense of futility in these dreams. It reminds me of Emily Dickinson's poem, "Much Madness is Divinest Sense." (The poem about the minority voice being thought mad because her feelings deviate from the majority. But as it turns out, it is the majority in the wrong. (Think Salem witch trials, the once prevailing idea the earth is flat etc.)
