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« Reply #2 on: December 28, 2005, 06:00:00 PM »
Yeah, Miller did that to most of us I think.  He told me he knew, just from looking at my eyes, that I had done cocaine.  Obviously total bullshit.

As to whether or not we ever really escape it, that's an excellent question.  I haven't yet and I've been out almost as long as you.  Connecting the dots regarding exactly what was done to me and how has helped.  I knew it fucked me up but just didn't understand the mechanics of it.  This helped.....  http://www.ex-cult.org/.  Look under General Information.  It helped explain a lot of things to me.  Reading through other posts here helped too.  It's kind of a double edged sword though, I also found out that so many of these places still exist and that was incredibly difficult to realize.  The fact that Miller calls himself a priest now really pissed me off too but thanks to the efforts of a few brave souls Miller and Mel appear to be getting a small dose of what they deserve, nowhere near enough but its a start.

Check these out too....  http://www.ficausa.com/
 http://thestraights.com/index.htm

Welcome, hope you find some peace with this.  :smile:
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« Reply #3 on: December 28, 2005, 06:03:00 PM »
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On 2005-12-28 14:56:00, dragonfly wrote:

"That's just power trippy scare tactics, don't believe it.



One of the hallmarks of a cult. Some sort of doomsday if you leave or escape.


Oh yeah, forgot about that part.  That's the standard deadinsaneorinjail crap.  Our parents were all told that if we left we'd either die, go nuts or end up in jail.  Lovely.  :roll:
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« Reply #4 on: December 28, 2005, 06:11:00 PM »
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« Reply #5 on: December 28, 2005, 06:31:00 PM »
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« Reply #7 on: December 28, 2005, 07:41:00 PM »
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« Reply #8 on: December 28, 2005, 08:25:00 PM »
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On 2005-12-28 16:41:00, Scarred in St Pete wrote:


Do you know the address of St Pete Straight Inc? I've had my husband drive me all over St Pete trying to jar my memory. I've ofter thought that if I could just freely look at the bldg & walk around it, I could heal myself. US19? goes on 4ever! Is the building still there?
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The Gandy bldg. is at 3001 Gandy Blvd. (or it may have been changed to Frontage Rd), I'm not sure which one you were in.  I took a little tour of Gandy a few years back.  Spooky, but it did seem to help.  The flood of memories was a bit intense, but after that it actually DID help to be able to walk through there on my own.
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« Reply #9 on: December 28, 2005, 08:25:00 PM »
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On 2005-12-28 14:48:00, Scarred in St Pete wrote:

Do people who have endured such a nightmare ever fully get over it? They told my parents I would never be normal unless a completed the program...I escaped after 8 months and do not feel normal. Does anyone know what they meant by not being normal unless the program was completed?


Well, yes and no. I think my dad's childhood and life was a good deal tougher than mine in many ways. It made him the angry, raging, hard nosed sob that he was. But it didn't stop him, entirely, from explaining to us what he was so pissed about. And it was valid. Even when our parents contradict themselves, it's still our lot to sort the worthwhile from the trash.

I think the Straight term 'normal' was code for 'a perfectly compliant, clean cut, drug free, opinionless perpetual child who you shall always control with just a look'.

Don't worry, graduates came out even more tweaked, if anything. Staffers, often even moreso.

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« Reply #10 on: December 28, 2005, 09:12:00 PM »
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On 2005-12-28 16:41:00, Scarred in St Pete wrote:

"What is going on with miller & the wealthy people that started Straight Inc? ((never mind, i just read to entire artical)). however, i doubt anything will come of it.



Do you know the address of St Pete Straight Inc? I've had my husband drive me all over St Pete trying to jar my memory. I've ofter thought that if I could just freely look at the bldg & walk around it, I could heal myself. US19? goes on 4ever! Is the building still there?

Considering we weren't allowed to read steet signs or any other kind of signs, it's no wonder I can't remember where it is.


How ridiculous that people (other straightlings) would actually put their hands over my eyes to disallow me to see where in the world I was![ This Message was edited by: Scarred in St Pete on 2005-12-28 16:55 ]"
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If you were in 25 years ago, you might have been in the Yacht building off Park St and about 40 something avenue north in St Pete, it set back off the road a bit, the original building was a ragged looking place on 40th St  and about 8th Ave south in St Pete, it sat right next the railroad tracks which is now the Pinellas Trail, but they moved out to Park St in 78. I heard some time later they moved out to Gandy but I was never inside that building. I haven?t been to that part of St Pete for many years, for reasons of demographics I try to minimize my trips to that city altogether, but the last I was by Park St it was still standing.













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« Reply #12 on: December 29, 2005, 11:04:00 AM »
Gandy bldg.  Its now a Knology dispatch center.  3001 Gandy Blvd.

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« Reply #13 on: December 29, 2005, 01:11:00 PM »
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« Reply #14 on: December 29, 2005, 01:51:00 PM »
You are a survivor of trauma, neglect, isolation, denial of basic human rights and abuse. The key to healing is understanding and dealing with what happened to you and then leaving it in the past. Know that you are not alone, and that there are resources out there for emotional support.

Welcome to the board.

Our youth can not understand why society chooses to criminalize a behavior with so little visible ill effect or adverse social impact... These young people have jumped the fence and found no cliff.

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