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THE WRITING WAS ON THE WALL

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Stripe:

--- Quote ---On 2005-11-15 06:44:00, NOT12NOW wrote:

" But after a couple weeks it didn't matter anymore cause the system won, it didn't take long to overpower a desperate young girl.   After that I was so busy looking for signs of fucked-up-ness in myself that my awareness that the program was fucked was disabled.  Any time anything happened in group which brought that to my attention I turning it around on myself asap--they weren't fucked up I was fucked up for thinking that and if I didn't stop I would be caught, screamed at or even started over.

All in all, given my powerless position at the time I think my unconscious did me a big favor by giving in enough to get through as fast as possible.
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I vaguely recall running a smiliar kind of mindgame on myself way back then, but not until I was an oldcomer. I guess that just proves how "good" the programming was at the seed.  

When a child's mind is manipulated to to point of turning against itself as a protective measure...that's some pretty strong evidence of an unwholesome situation. And I'm being kind using the word "unwholesome" to describe the seed.

Jupiter Survivor:
I was 14 and my mom made me (not exactly her but staff)and I didn't know there was a choice.  With threats of going to Juvie (even though I had not broken the law)and all of the be honest with yourself (i.e. be honest like THEY say honest is) being doomed to addiction or jail, I guess I was caught in a cycle of trying to fit in, trying to figure out what was wrong with me, why I was the only one that didn't get IT.... that and the fact that a staff member knew sign language....geeez

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