I know who this is, and I want to say i'm sorry. I won't tell you who I am, but i will tell you this, many of the ex employees won't talk about things they have seen because we can't afford to pay for a lawyer to defend ourselves from these 'cough' lovely people. I do know that there is talk what is going on, and most of the employees, admitting it or not, do know what is going on. They are as brain wash as the kids and it takes getting out of there to realise what you could have done if you only had more power then TLC. I do know many of the employees that left, left not for themselves but because they could no longer watch what was going on. I heard things have been better, but i'm guessing things are just kept more secrative. I was a very rebelious teen, and I was dealt with by my parents. If your a parent saying 'oh i can't deal with my kid, they're to much,' all i have to say is you aren't trying hard enough. I was clinically depressed when i was running away from home, stopped eatting and using drugs. My mom did not yell at me, she was upset of course. She knew what i needed and she was right. I was sent to my aunt to get away from the enviroment i was in. My aunt brought up nothing, she just gave me a place to collect my thoughts. It was the best thing to get away, plus i got on lexapro, which also helped. either way your kids really are only going to learn to scream if they are screamed at. Teens aren't retarded, they're is always something deeper going on in they're minds. Just know they don't know how to verbalize like most adults yet. They're still learning, give them time. However honey, killing yourself is not what you needed to do there, so i'm glad you didn't succeed in it. You are so smart! Just a teenager, which is okay. Just know that i am sorry for not being able to save you. I had no idea that certain girl was raping other girls. Sorry i'm not saying much, like i said, i didn't want to give to much away about who i am. Take my advise, get out of the enviroment and the people your around, ALL OF THEM, and start a new life. Ask around about life, be curious. PS i love your pic from Ruroni Kenshin, i have the whole anime collection of the tv series. good pick.