I tried unsuccessfully to quit for around 10 years once I started smoking again, and the same sort of thing happened to me, as to another poster here... I started feeling like I was consciously committing slow suicide that could turn into a really horrible sick death, every time I had a smoke. I just decided one day, after long weeks of deliberation, that I would never again pick one up. No one is going to force you to smoke a cigarette they buy for you, are holding and have to light for you, give to you, and hold while you smoke it... and in every situation I wanted a smoke, there was something else I could have been doing; I just started doing something else in those times. Yeah, hard as hell sometimes, but if you know you will just NOT pick the fucking thing up, you will never smoke again. It's been 5 years, and I believe you can also decide not to be a raving loony when quitting. You make the choice, every time.