oh betsey, dear betsey....I am not ignoring you, just that I'm at work and have only moments to write here and there. I hope you're nicer, because back then you weren't. But I have no opinion really being that it's been ten years and I don't even know you anymore. I am married, have a four-year-old daughter named grace, and I own a boutique in montana--a very hip little town south of missoula.
unfortunately, we never had a chance. John used you against me at the ungliest time in my life to date. I would love to share more of that with you and why I am now an opponent of mms and believe that even ten years later I am still healing from the trauma john inflictted. He was deawd wrong, (how couldn't he be...he had no training in phsycology and a huge and frightening ego to match) about my personality. I NEVER told a lie while I was there, I NEVER stole food, or withheld information and the more I said that, the worse it got, until I was at the point of making up stories to appease him. He used your "bitchiness" just to be mean. If you remember, you were my "food partner" and would elbow my in the arm when I didn't eat at the pace you felt I should. I don't really blame you, you were doing what you were told, but I also remember the humiliation at being eighteen and being told by someone so much younger how to eat my food and sometimes getting me in more trouble,NOT what I needed. I don't say this to hurt your feelings, just to let you know where my memories are and I'll bet you were just young and confussed like the rest of us. I would love to know how others are doing and the "truth" about mike and deb. more later