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« on: February 02, 2003, 05:51:00 PM »
Amylynn,
I found your post perfectly articulated my own feelings about my captivity 10 years ago. I also brought the topic up with my mother who said "let it go", but also mentioned that those people made her feel like she was in "1st grade in Catholic school". To me that means she was bullied and that may explain why she doesn't ever want me to bring it up again (the fact it didn't work PLUS the $20,000 she wasted are, no doubt, contributing to that).
I found this site a couple of weeks ago and was eager to find some people I shared this experience with. Fact is, my parents are never going to understand what happened to me there and no matter how much I force them to listen to- I will never fully forgive them and only manage to view them more as victims as time has worn on. (Not to make it sound like I'm resentful or hateful-- we'll just never be on the same page about that chapter in my life.) I found this site a few weeks ago and expect to be here for a while longer while I work the whole thing out. I doubt I'll ever find a person to discuss this with face-to-face who will fully appreciate the hell I went through-- this is the best I'm going to get. "Love ya Amylynn!"
I'm here if you need to talk.
Ms.P