wow almost never give this place a thought, always described it as this totally crazy place that I was sent for two years cuz I was fucked up kid (what kid is not) like an alien planet. Another place or situation tough as it was but just another I would have to over come. The strong survive and move forward the weak get trapped and look for excuses.
I even showed up maybe two years later while I was holidaying with my then girlfriend in Portland. Always appreciated that I got to enjoy the beauty of Maine and I really fuckin loved the seafood when I was able to get into the city on trip or what-not. Anyhow I showed on Number 5 to show this girl my alien world. Even went right up to E7 and knocked on the door. I have always been bold and I figured I am a successful person they can?t be mad. Even though I was booted from elan after 1 week in house isolation smoking pot with the security put on my guard. I sure read a lot like five books including my history book. A subject I hold dear. I had previously reached the rank of coordinator of expeditors ( I think, my memory is very ummm Swiss cheesed from that time) but I talked my mom into pulling me out and the directors of E7 were unable to talk my mother (single and very hard working mother who could not afford the $100k elan demanded and convinced her was needed to "save my life") and by this point I knew there general philosophy was bullshit having had guilt from day one lots and lots of guilt (SUCKERS) whatever we have our kicks! So I sp d someone?s parent group what a sick concept "the parent group" and I have a brief fling with the kids older sister. Not sex but kissing and all that cute kid shit. So when the visits over and we are back at E7 I say good bye to the family and give this girl what was I guess a sensual kiss you know like a FU elan. I mean you know we all lacked the necessary attention and focus that helps kids develop and have good relationships. I am sure a lot of people come out of elan and have retarded relationships cuz they didn?t learn real interactions. Would have loved to played with some of the girls in my house. You know, we only have these years once. Truth be if we were in jail which was highly likely for some kids, we would have missed those years too! Maybe I would have been to jail I was pretty out of control
I got a real kick by acting out and mostly did it for my own entertainment and hopefully a some of the people that were there. That place was Crazy. As I said before I have always been bold. Shit the first month I was there the day or two after Christmas I went out the fire door in the mens dorm. 30 feet of snow and no fuckin shoes. Shock and amaze. They didn?t find me either went right up a tree till the coast was clear only on my own I came back cuz it was so damn cold. I am a south Florida boy and never been to Maine. Just knew I didn?t want to be in Poland spring. Shit when i first got to maine and was at the sheridan for the weekend. i was tricked into that it was just a boarding school and then learned difrent once in maine so i kept quiet and dipped out in the middle of the night off to the grey hound station and on a bus to RI where my grandmother. The mother of my father who passed away in 82 would save me, she was gonna put me on a plane to florida. I could hide out there. Nope cops came and turnes out grandma and uncle r were gonna be taking me back to maine. We stopped for lobster on the way. Not a bad LAST MEAL! I also still did not know what was in store ahead.
So I gave them maybe two months of hell while they dished all there bullshit. GM, corner, isolation, they never broke my will. Never, I took them head to head from that point on. I knew I couldn?t run so I would have to out smart them.
I used to live in Los Angeles and had a very nice house under the Hollywood sign in the hills. One night two guys bust into my house with masks on and at gun point tie me up and put a pillow case over my head. They were there to rob me and said they would kill me if I did not give tell them where my money or drugs were. Unfortunately for me and them I had no money or drugs. I am not a drug deal and never have been. But I do like to get high, you know! I am successful and honest and what I consider a noble person in society. I don?t like alcohol or myself on it so I want to smoke weed and sorry no one can tell me I cant not then not now. You know what? I moved to Amsterdam and commuted to work in NYC 4 or 5 times a year just so I could show people just how much anything was possible. Well that?s not the only reason but a real one none the less! I live in Barcelona now if you care. They have great hash the best from morocco big ass chunks for 20 euro. Not even illegal here!!!! So I obviously didn?t get shot and the masked men were unmasked and arrested about 20 minutes later at the exact location I told the cops they would be. I am sorry but the elan school was as smart as a couple of dime bag gangsters from Compton. I don?t consider myself of being in the highest echelon of intellect but I have been around the block and find strength in others weakness. (I am a survivor)!
Alright back to the story at hand. Never had a nightmare, well that?s not true as I write at this at this very moment I think of hundreds well say dozens of nightmares waking up in cold sweats. I don?t remember at the moment if it was so much what happened in elan or just people and places that were familiar because of elan. Anyhow nightmares are not that unusual and I don?t have an extraordinary amount of them. I am also not haunted by my time in elan. You know what doesn?t kill us only makes us stronger. And I can definitely knock people back with the story. Nothing I am ashamed of I take pride in all aspects about myself experience is what makes people better. And for the few of us in this 6,000,000,000 world that experienced this it is our bond and brother/sisterhood. We were brothers and sister (in a sometimes sick way, yes girls I fantasized about a lot of you sorry boys will be boys, and I still managed to mature into a gentleman) we are and we know or knew (I forgot a lot but I am sure could be brought back by a series of hypnotist sessions, really I think so) a lot about each others and families and such. I felt very close to a lot of you some of which now I don?t remember there names....
to be continued in a multi part story on my perspective now at 28 and looking back to this time....
I leave you with this for thought. I know a lot of useless facts but i dont know this. who is first quoted as saying "That which does not kill us, will only make us stonger" and was it an elan philosophy (again my memory some things stick like glue others gone in the wind) pretty ironic if it was. sad that phil cant apply to everyone............
[ This Message was edited by: globetrottingaficionado on 2005-02-13 16:53 ]
