yeah, its been a really long time since we have talked. i've been kind of torn to leave elan and the whole experience in the past or get in on the chat rooms and stuff on this site, do you ever feel like that? like just leaving it behind and moving on to the future or the present? to be honest with you, I made the decision to leave it all in the past, you know you grow up and move on and make better decisions for yourself, it seems like the way I was was a different person than who I am now. Does that make sense?