Was there ever a Dallas Reunion?

[ShebbyLeavers]

I logged onto this site over a year ago and got all freaked out when I read that attorneys were looking for names of Senior Staff Members to include them in their class actions but for some reason I am drawn back once again.  I ran a search for my name and found a lot of colorful posts to say at best and I saw ones about a possible reunion in July.  Did it happen and what's happening with the Dallas survivors.  I saw Andy Bromberger's posting.  I love you big.  It's been way to long since I hugged your neck.  I tried to email Lesli Eberstein just now but that post was over a year old so if you still check this out, email me at *********
I still keep in touch with lots of people from Straight but haven't heard from those that moved away and I'd love to hear from you.  [ This Message was edited by: ShebbyLeavers on 2004-12-06 06:33 ]

[Anonymous]

Hey you. It's Lesli. I'll email you.

[Scarstruck]

Shelly ! Nicest staff  member evah! How ya doing?
I was thinking of going to thew old richardson building, and wanted to take some pictures...Im sure its still there. In fact Im going to do that soon, I just need to decide what Ill say to the current occupants of the building as to why I want to enter and photo the place.

 Dont know why I want to go in that building so bad.....

 Im in the Hurst/NRC area, so its probably only a ...20 minute drive?

 As for a reunion I think Id pass as I still have alot of hard feelings, and dont know if I really can deal with the emotional onslaught of it.
  Most from Straight I dont have negative feelings towards but theres a small handful I really really do to the point that I want to strangle them until they turn blue and their eyes glaze over...
 Not that Id ever do that but its just some hate I want to leave buried.
  You were the coolest staff member and even when you tried to be confrontational it wasnt in you.
 I liked you alot. Never spoke to you but friom raps etc .
 I knew when you led a rap it was going to be somewhat helpful as opposed to a "Steve Brooks" type rap.
 Glad you are ok



 Brad

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[ This Message was edited by: Scarstruck on 2004-10-09 08:50 ]

[ShebbyLeavers]

Brad,
I'm glad to hear that I didn't hurt you in any way.  I'm sure that there are some girls that probably hold grudges against me as you do those that hurt you.  I was following in line with those who were brain washed before me.  My heart was good though and I truly cared what happened to most of the kids.  I bet it broke my heart if I knew that you had never even done drugs and had to be there anyway.  Towards the end it was hard for me because I wanted to rescue so many kids and I couldn't.  I ended up working at a real treatment center not a brain washing camp a few years after Straight and would like to think I was able to really help some troubled kids for a short while.

I read your post earlier about all the rehabs you went to after straight and that made me so sad.  I hope that you will be able to heal all of that.  Healing wounds isn't easy.  I had problems going into straight that I couldn't even get to until I worked out all the crap I learned while in there.  I still have things to look at and heal but I think most of them are from my childhood now instead of from Straight.

[Anonymous]

On 2004-10-09 13:37:00, ShebbyLeavers wrote:

"Brad,

I'm glad to hear that I didn't hurt you in any way.  I'm sure that there are some girls that probably hold grudges against me as you do those that hurt you.  I was following in line with those who were brain washed before me.  My heart was good though and I truly cared what happened to most of the kids.  I bet it broke my heart if I knew that you had never even done drugs and had to be there anyway.  Towards the end it was hard for me because I wanted to rescue so many kids and I couldn't.  I ended up working at a real treatment center not a brain washing camp a few years after Straight and would like to think I was able to really help some troubled kids for a short while.

  "

Boy, that was a nice justification.  That didn't help the nazi collaborators; w hy  should it be any excuse for you.  I was in straight, was asked to be on staff and told them "no way"  Nice excuse, but I don't by it.

[Scarstruck]

On 2004-10-11 04:46:00, Anonymous wrote:

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On 2004-10-09 13:37:00, ShebbyLeavers wrote:


"Brad,


I'm glad to hear that I didn't hurt you in any way.  I'm sure that there are some girls that probably hold grudges against me as you do those that hurt you.  I was following in line with those who were brain washed before me.  My heart was good though and I truly cared what happened to most of the kids.  I bet it broke my heart if I knew that you had never even done drugs and had to be there anyway.  Towards the end it was hard for me because I wanted to rescue so many kids and I couldn't.  I ended up working at a real treatment center not a brain washing camp a few years after Straight and would like to think I was able to really help some troubled kids for a short while.


  "

Boy, that was a nice justification.  That didn't help the nazi collaborators; w hy  should it be any excuse for you.  I was in straight, was asked to be on staff and told them "no way"  Nice excuse, but I don't by it."

You dontknow her either, fucko! She wasnt abusive...she was a staffer but she wasnt confrontational...I know who was and wasnt as I was in group every fucking day from 4/2 of 1988 till 1/1 of 1989...and my memories are vivid.

 She wasnt a meglomaniac that had a look of glee while ripping other kids. That was Jenn Loar...and Steve Brooks and Bobby Gilbert ...etc

 All of Shellys raps were  at leasdt an honest attempt at  having a helpful rap. She just wasnt a bitch. There were staff that were good people and there were fuckos...

 But you werent even in Dallas straight were you?

[Scarstruck]

On 2004-10-09 13:37:00, ShebbyLeavers wrote:

"Brad,

I'm glad to hear that I didn't hurt you in any way.  I'm sure that there are some girls that probably hold grudges against me as you do those that hurt you.  I was following in line with those who were brain washed before me.  My heart was good though and I truly cared what happened to most of the kids.  I bet it broke my heart if I knew that you had never even done drugs and had to be there anyway.  Towards the end it was hard for me because I wanted to rescue so many kids and I couldn't.  I ended up working at a real treatment center not a brain washing camp a few years after Straight and would like to think I was able to really help some troubled kids for a short while.



I read your post earlier about all the rehabs you went to after straight and that made me so sad.  I hope that you will be able to heal all of that.  Healing wounds isn't easy.  I had problems going into straight that I couldn't even get to until I worked out all the crap I learned while in there.  I still have things to look at and heal but I think most of them are from my childhood now instead of from Straight.  "

Thanks...Im alright ...have alot of problems but straight merely compounded the probs I already had you know?
 Dealing with drug addiction....real drug addiction ...is the major weight on me.
 I dont shoot dope anymore ..but Ive been clean from heroin like 8 times and went back sometimes with 4 year periods of clean ..
 Now Im on the methadone program and ..it works.
 It has its drawbacks and its still physically addictive but ...I can live with it.
  Every time I try to taper and detox I come crawling back. I just get so sick in withdrawls I end up scoring.

 Anyway Been clean for 2 or 3 years now (I dont count the date and dont go to meetings...I do it on my own and with mmt) Just moved to the Dallas area and have new apartment with a wonderful woman who understands and is also a Straight survivor.
  Hope all is well with you.

 Do you even remember me ? My pics on the alumni site i think..

[ShebbyLeavers]

Brad,
I did see your pictures on the Alumni site but it?s all such a blur.  Your face is so familiar though as if I?ve seen you as an adult and not at 13 but I just can?t remember.  Thanks for sticking up for me with the Anon post.  I didn?t take it on though.  I know what I was and what was in my heart.  I was a real addict and an alcoholic before Straight.  I wasn?t one that had to make it all up to get through the program.  Maybe that?s why it was different for me as a staff member.  I really was grateful to be sober and I really wanted to help others find what I?d found, the connection with god, etc.  I hated the way straight did things and I tried to do my own thing when I could.  I still am a grateful sober person but that?s because I had a chance to deprogram from Straight and was able to find connections in AA.  I?ve recently looked back at pictures from then and it?s made me so sad for those who had no drug problem and yet had to lie and make it all up to get out of that crazy place.  It?s so incredibly sad what they did to so many kids.   I?m glad to hear that you have tried to kick heroin.  I really know nothing about the methadone program, only that people are able to function again in society with the help of it.  I wasn?t a downer kind of girl, being so depressed, I always needed help getting up and so never had any desire to use heroin but I understand from stories it?s the hardest to quit.  I wish you all the luck with that.
I'm glad to hear that you have someone in your life that understands you.  I've heard it said that most people in life really just want to be loved and understood. Take care.
Shelly

[Scarstruck]

Nah I havent shot any heroin in a long time.
Im not sober by any stretch of the imagination....I just dont abuse opiates, cocaine , speed, or alcohol..
  I try not to be around it. Methamphetamine and Heroin are big weaknesses...but I know that if I put the heroin in my blood I cant feel it..that helps alot and Ive actually watched people shoot heroin 4 or 5 times and not used myself.

 I didnt like the feeling, because even though I know the methadone will block the high...I still like the needle and the blood going into the barrel.

 Im still struggling with social problems..I cant stand large crowds...I really have little desire for social contact..when friends come by I mostly wish they would just leave.
  I go out and do as little as I have to do to get by you know? I like to have a nice place and al;l my bills paid so I get things done...
 I just try to get through each day as comfortable as possible ya know?
  I have had my fill of conflict and stress and I simply will not deal with it ..I refuse.
 My girlfriend and I never argue. We have very good communication skills and are able to usually work anything out.
  But neither of us do the things that usually cause relationmship problems..we dont drink or go out to clubs (both over 30 years old now )
 I spend alot of my free time on computer and playing MMORPG's etc .
 Im currently trying to decide what I wanna take, and then return to college.
 Problem is theres not much that interests me ..
Perhaps Im a bit disassociative ..


 Its just like I dont give a fuck about anything enough to study it OR my background wont allow me to work in a certain field ...or its drug testing and or liability involved that I dont need
  (ie: Nursing..say Im drawing blood and I bust a vein...person files a complaint and they piss test me finding methadone in my system ...thats grounds for a nice lawsuit Im sure.

 "That junky nurse fucked my arm up!!" ~ even though Im quite proficient with a needle ~ I have shot up fat blubbery people that had no veins numerous times~ I can hit people in the veins in their neck and not leave a mark...
 
 Sorry to ramble...Im bored and wired on coffee

[Scarstruck]

Oh and Shelly , no big deal Im not going out of my way to stick up for you ...Im just being honest and real about the way things were.
 I remember alot clearly..Oh and I basically look just like I did at 13 now. Just taller etc etc ..but Im one of those people whos face didnt change alot. I tried to lay low in straight so you prolly wouldnt have remembered me anyway its been a long time. But I remember alot of raps you did. I remember everyone quite well. I blocked it for years but in the last 2 years since finding fornits and speaking to people its come back to me.

In fact you guys did a BS rap one day..and you attempted to roll a joint using toilet paper as a prop..remember this rap ?  :rofl:

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Crumbling world falls through my hands
In my mouth taste bitter sands.
Grass is burning, pulse is slow.
Drip by drip my backwards growth... crawl.
Fade to hate.
And I'll die within my fade[ This Message was edited by: Scarstruck on 2004-10-15 08:18 ]

[ShebbyLeavers]

well that incident in group doesn't sound like me, not my style.  I think I would have had a problem with those kinds of fake drug stunts.  I don't really remember though, so anything is possible.  Seems absolutely absurd to me now though like what the hell were staff thinking?  In talking to a friend about old memories last night I remembered when I got sat in group on 5th phase just because I made it to 5th phase in 6 months and they couldn't figure out how, like I must be FOS for making it that quick and so of course I got ripped into and the whole time knowing how absolutely absurd it all was and having to pull out something that was wrong with me just to satisfy the vultures even though I wasn't FOS.  Things I haven't thought about in 16 years.

[Anonymous]

Jason Periot had a party last Halloween that he posted and invited straight peeps, and then had another one around Valetines.  It wasn't really straight reunionish, but Destroy Everything was there, Urine Trouble was there and they both rock.

I remember you Shelly.  You were one of the nicer staffers.  You wern't that far ahead of me.  actually I think you came in after me and than zipped past me.  I felt safe in your raps.  Many others I was a bundle of anxious nerves.

For you punkers Destroy Everything will be back in Dallas soon.  Their tour starts this Friday in Denver.  Texas dates can be checked on their website, destroyeverything.com I think or for sure go to our site pornjunkyusa.com and click links.

I will not see Texas again for a while.  Colorado is really awesome this time of year.  Every morning I walk outside and am sweap away by the mountains, green pines, yellow aspens, snow on pikes peak, deer running around.  It's a far cry from West Texas.  

But hey, GO Houston Astros, right

[beth1222]

Can somebody tell me where the Dallas branch was?  My husband is from Ft. Worth and I am curious if he might have ever seen it.  Thanks.

[Anonymous]

2900 Gateway Ste 600 Irving Texas 75063
per STRAIGHT propaganda I have stashed.

I think there was also something in Richardson, Texas at a later time.

[Anonymous]

No, it was actually the Richardson Straight that was the first Straight, Inc. in Dallas.