On 2004-08-03 08:23:00, taureana wrote:
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I remember shady details of one of my friends who was on staff, going to the building and making off with alot of office equipment and so forth...apparently everything was locked up and shut down....including all our records and so forth. Dont know if they broke in, I think they were trying to liquidate whatever was in that building before it fell into the wrong (right) hands."
When I worked at FirStep in Carrolton, there were a lot of our records there. I searched for mine, but couldn't find anything. There were micro-casette tapes from intakes, etc. The one that I remember the most was Jen Loar's. I didn't have a micro-cassette player, otherwise I probably would have swiped it. At the time I was only 20, had only been out of Straight for 2 years and had no idea of the magnitude of what was before me. I don't think I really gave a damn then either."
Straight was open...for another 3 or four years after I was pulled. At first I tried to integrate back into public school (only now I was like 2 years behind everyone I grew up with) and of course everyone knew me as that rehab kid.. I was shellshocked and could hardly talk to people..
Was very strange time for me...My life went into a tailspin that began shortly after straight...I didnt realize it at the time but I think I was trying to kill the pain of hating myself that straight taught me.
I didnt realize that ..straight was what it was until about 9 months ago..
I knew it was abuse but ..until these sites came around ....I didnt get the full impact of what had happened.
I think if I had been 17 or so straighjt wouldnt have impacted me as bad as it did.. But as a barely turned 13 year old...I was way too young for that.
Cannot believe they admitted me at that age for depression..I wasnt on drugs and was a virgin.
Thanks straight...guess you needed the 60 grand huh? at the expense of my sanity?