John Gugliamo

[mcadaret]

I keep reading about Staff members: Steve Turney, Brady Minnick, Frye (I don't remember his frist name), McCann (but it wasn't Brendan. He was a phaser. His sister was a staff member and a real bad-ass at that.)

Does anybody remember John Gugliamo. He was a tall, bullying doofus with a cheesy mustache. He thought he was really smart, but he probably couldn't outwit a bag of hammers. So he resorted to being nothing mare than a bully. He was the bane of my existence. I heard he was using steroids. Eric Lake was one of his disciples. Anyway...

Michael

[infanalyst]

Michael,

Last I remember, John wanted to be a Border Patrol officer! Yes, I remember Eric Lake being a disciple of the extreme Marine, Gugliamo. I don't know what happened to either of them. See my other postings for info on Steve Turney, Brady Minnick, and others...

The Frye's were brothers, one named Tim, who was over 18 and court-ordered, and his younger brother Rob. Tim had the shortest record I ever heard of on 1st phase. His 1st phase was 21 or 24 days or something like that. His brother Rob, I remember very well. We actually share the exact same date of birth! He is the only person I have ever met who was born the exact same day I was! There was a Brendan McCann who was a big time misbehaver, who eventually copped-out and was terminated. Brendan McNamara was a staff member and lived for a while with Chris Scoggins, and I think Tim Frye lived with them for a short period. But I think you are thinking about Wally Greeves and his sister Kelly Greeves. Kelly was very nice and was only on staff for a very short time. Wally stayed on a little longer. It was weird because after I got out I hung out with all of these people and I was not treated any differently. In fact, one of my favorite hanging spots after leaving Straight was over at the Greeves house, where we could all play cards and hang out. Mike Reese was living there with Eric Elsmore, and Dan Kennett and myself used to drive over and play cards until 6 or 7 in the morning!

It's strange to remember all of this now, and I hope all of those people are doing well now. I may not have enjoyed their treatment while I was "incarcerated" by them, but at the same time I understand many of them were victims of the same thought reform/brainwashing we were being subjected to. For me, I'm glad I never let them get the best of me. However, only now after 15 years am I beginning to realize the amount of damage created by these behavior modification techniques which they utilized. These techniques which were used are some of the reasons I act the way I do today when placed in similar coercive situations.

Hope the name spilling doesn't offend people, my ability to remember names is absolutely incredible!

Aloha,
Brent

[buckrogers]

i remember john's name, but i cant remember if he was already gone, or a source of entertainment for dinner discussion or such.

i remember rob frye well. he was on staff and doing his best to be tourney. i never saw him after he left, he small grouped me once - very brutally. i believe i disliked him for that forever.

was eric elsmore the cat with the old car whose license plate said "Floyd" or was that Derek moore? any way i remember them both from staff. i dont believe i had an opinion about them. one of them always called on me.

[Anonymous]

i know this shit was posted long time ago, but I was there in the same era.  i was scared of my ass and probably did the best job at being a pud there was maybe only spoke 10 times in 7 months.

Pretty sick place!

Matt Cremen

[shady grove]

Ah ha, finally a springfield thread!

I was there with all these folks. John was one of the scariest motherfuckers I have ever met. But not as scarey as Tourney. Rob-dick, that's all I can say. Desperate to have the "skills" of Tourney, but his insecurity was obvious. Sorry Brent. I'm sure he's a good person and all, but I did not care for him then.

Mcaderet and Matt, can you give me a hint about yourselves? I was there with you. professional long-term pud. (2 year program, never above 3rd). My then-acquired step-sis was a staff member.

Anyone remeber and know current info about: Hockersmith, Hubbard or Mullinax? I've seen Joe Pelletier in the last 10 years.

Brent, correct me if I'm wrong, but wasn't McNamara a transplanted staff from Ohio? Very fluffy, pretty blonde mullet? If not, do you remember that guy? Used to hang out with Scoggins? Dead head? Like all, he had a dickishness, but wasn't too bad overall. Actually alot like Scoggins.

I know Frye was pretty close to Steepleton. I still think about Glen alot. In his way, he tried to help me, I think of him often.

Anyone remember "snag raps"? How fucked up!

Mike R##se was my first other newc. He was on T&R before his first cop out in a house in Silver Spring. That OC had a ferret that would bite your toes and fuck stuffed animals at the dinner table.

Remember Scott Mc-something? Had epilepsy and that's all he ever talked about? Liked to yell?

There's so many more. Thanks brothers!

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Brady Minnick lied to me. what i would really like to know, is if any staff from my era ever apologized to anyone.

how old was Brady Minnick when he was staff?

and can anyone tell me if a staff from the later 80s Springfield ever apologized to anyone?

nope? i didn't think so. well that is very irresponsible of them. so why don't they all contribute something to my weed supply which is the only thing keeping me from self- and other injury right now.

Brady Minnick and Sabrina a phaser pulled me out when i put in for withdraw. i was going to be eighteen in nine months. they said "if you try to get out when you are eighteen we will have you court ordered." because i had a dime bag on me when i went there (had no idea where my parents were taking me). this was a bald-faced lie however i not knowing about chain-of-evidence thought it was true and therefore i was screwed. i really really should have gotten a lawyer. i had no idea about that. so i complied then thinking that was the only way out. no, i complied because of not thinking.

there is a problem happening and that is this stuff hurts to remember then i don't know what to do.

[Sophie]

FKA,

Brady is probably about 37 or 38 years old now.  (I dated him after straight).  What I can tell you for sure about him is that if he told you that, he thought it was true.  However screwed up that is!  He really did have a kind heart and believed that the program was helping people.

How to get through the pain? Well,getting high only ever delayed the pain for me. Never made any of my pain go away permanatly. As I see it one important thing is to identify the kind of pain you feel.  Is it the pain of recognition or the pain of regret?  The pain of recognition is a totally normal response to the trauma we experienced.  Having it overwhelm you to the point that you want to get high..well, that sounds to me like you may need to aquire some less self destructive coping skills.  It really is like giving straight the power all over again. I had to get professinal help.  The most effective techniques for me were E.M.D.R. and Seemorg Matrix work.  Both kind of "weird" but the most profound healing of my life. (you can learn more at http://www.emdr.org and http://www.seemorgmatrix.org) My experience is that if I walk through my shitty feelings and deal with them, instead of fog them up or try to hang on to them I feel less pain the next time.  And if I do it over and over the less pain I feel.  I got really tired of old shit influencing the way I felt and navigated my life.

So what coping mechanisms do I use??? Well, talking to other people... but the most effective for me has been seeking a spriritual solution... not religion or dogma but an understanding of how the universe works for me and where the experiences I have had are taking me.  Its kind of like putting together a jigsaw puzzle without seeing the picture on the box.

I feel ya sista'  hang in there!

K

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Dear Sophie,

Thank you for your kindness. I am a bit concerned that you say "that is like giving Straight the power all over again." I think it is not like that at all. I think that the really intense emotions mean more like i finally don't have so much prison inside my mind that i can think about things and have emotions. Straight had more power when i had so much strictness in my mind. can't explain it better right now.

Also i don't know what you mean when you say "acquire some coping skills." i guess you mean go to a "professional"? i have heard of this Eye Movement Desensitization & Reprogramming thing. i run from it. i have not heard of Borg Matrix therapy (j/k!), but perhaps i will look it up...

I know you don't like to smoke pot, that is fine, but it has factually helped me in the past few months. Sometimes when i am stoned the memories come rushing in. not just Straight, either, i get childhood memories. it is nice. it also does something like lift the anxiety so i can think and most amazing of all so that i can write again, which is totally something Straight wrecked.

if i try to "walk through my shitty feelings" i'm a damn grouch and i cry and can't go out in public.

but thank you for wanting to help me.

why don't you tell Brady Minnick to write me or something.

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please don't take my contrariness personally Sophie, you are very nice to write to me this morning, and i appreciate it.

[Mr. Matt]

I can tell you about me doubt if too many people would remember me though.  I did a great job of hiding.  I was 5' 8"  Brown hair hazel eyes.  I am from Baltimore.  Warren and (?) did my intake.  I stand with a slight bend in my back.  Kinda as if I were leaning against a wall. (don't know why I just do!)

Hope this helps

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that's what we called you, the Leaning Guy. (just kidding!)  :lol:

mr matt, you are a damn hoot. too bad we aren't going to agree on the AA stuff, but, as with sophie, don't take my contrariness personally.

[Sophie]

I am not in the position to ask Brady to write to you.  That was one of the lousiest things I have ever done... I wronged him.. in a big humilating way and haven't spoken to him since 1993 or 1994.  He's on the amends list... my amend to him is to stay the hell out of his life.  I am still ashamed of the way I handled that relationship, would like for him to hear my side of it..but that would only serve to relieve me of my guilt.  So.. that's that.

I am glad that smoking pot is something that helps you, I think it helps a lot of people.  I'm just not built for it.  I hear what you are saying about the power/straight thing.  I don't think I was articulating well.  We all have our way of coping and it was shitty that I so judged your way... its kind of like I have found this really great restaurant with awesome food and I want everyone to eat there..but not everyone likes the same food as me.  Its self centered but coming from a loving place.  Oh well!

Take care,
K

[Mr. Matt]

That's cool people can't agree on everthing.  The one I do agree with you though is Straight was a bunch of SHIT!

[Anonymous]

On 2005-05-01 08:43:00, fka wrote:


I know you don't like to smoke pot, that is fine, but it has factually helped me in the past few months. Sometimes when i am stoned the memories come rushing in. not just Straight, either, i get childhood memories. it is nice. it also does something like lift the anxiety so i can think and most amazing of all so that i can write again, which is totally something Straight wrecked.



if i try to "walk through my shitty feelings" i'm a damn grouch and i cry and can't go out in public.

Drugs are fucking cool....However, being addicted to/ dependent on  anything, including drugs, SUCKS.  However, wise use of drugs can help you cope with bullshit, past, present, or future, a lot more effectively (and economically) than a room full of "therapists" can.

Trust yourself, your choices, and your DNA. It has gotten you this far, after 3 billion + years of life on this planet, and there is no reason to doubt it yet.  Like the Red Temple Cult teaches us, "we are only robot vehicles for our DNA".

your pal

RTP2k3

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