Any of you current/ex needle users ever feel you were addicted to the needle itself?
Thats ultimately what led me to quit..Dulling thru dozens of syringes to get one shot in..
Bleeding from about 30 holes and yhaving to take another shower just to wash all the blood off so as not to stain my clothes..
But I noticed when I made the transition to Methadone...it fixed me and I felt better ...but missed the process of fixing..
Watching the little line of blood suck up into the dope when you pull the plunger back...or if you hit a big dino vein sometimes you didnt need
to register...you felt that satisfying "pop" as it broke the vein and just knew it was a red head.
Yes the needle itself was (is) powerful wasnt it?
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It's the FEAR that keeps them silent. Pretty soon that fear turns into brainwashed acceptance. Years later it still has a way of lingering. Not letting that fear control us is the only way to survive.
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-03-19 04:29 ]
