Ya know, I have been thinking about all this and realized that this debate has gone on long before we ever started and will most likely continue long after us. I have been looking at everyones different thoughts and opinions about Jesus, religion, faith, lack of faith, science, and I have looked at every question that has been asked of me....some I knew the answer to and some I didn't and don't.
So I started to dig a little bit and I began talking to people that dedicated large portions of their life to theology and studies of history and the bible and began reading more myself, in a very short time period I began to get some answers to some of my very own questions about all this. See, you act as if you are the only ones that have doubts about God and Jesus or question things that are in the bible....you are not.
I believe in Jesus and I personally believe that he died on the cross for me and all of you...I also have questions and things that I don't understand though too, I am also just as human as you are. The things that I question or don't understand, I will research and try to find out more for myself but, I also have faith that I will learn these things in Gods time and not my own.
Now, I am not here to try and convince you or anyone of what they should believe in, I can only share my own personal experiences of God in my life and these facts my friend, are for real and did happen to me and I did not document them on paper. But that would not mean anything to you either as they didn't happen to you directly only me.
Let's face it, all of us in here have been let down by so many things in this life whether it be people, Straight, laws, parents, family, jobs, spouses, friends, doctors, schools etc. that we don't want to depend on anyone and we don't want to be hurt, we don't wanna have faith in anything let alone something we can only read about. So we want facts unless it can't remotely affect us emotionally, if it can affect us emotionally and there is fear in us and there rightly should be as we have been betrayed and hurt so many times before by PEOPLE, we now feel we have to analyze every aspect of anothers belief and question their intentions and judge them even if that persons very own life is a billion times better then ever before.
Greg, my question to you is why do you insult people and try and hurt people for telling you what they believe in their heart? I am not asking you this with a bad motive, I am just asking. I have watched you insult me on my grammar and poke fun at someone elses thoughts and beliefs, when neither of us did that to you when we read your opinions and what you think. I just think if I agreed with everything you were saying and expressing it with the same bad grammar, you most likely would not have insulted me....But, I don't know that for sure.
I go through my struggles in life just like anyone and there are times when I analyze and doubt my own faith and then there are times when I wanna just say fuck all this because doing what is right in my heart can be be fucking hard as hell and is hardly ever what I want to do. But, then I ask myself something when I want to question the bible...."what if the bible is right and all true?" See, if I turn my back on Jesus and God and I die only to find out that I was wrong and all this is true and heaven and hell is the final result....well I just fucked myself for the final time and get to live with that result for eternity. If I continue to have faith and learn to have faith and try to continue to improve myself and my own spiritual connection to God and try to help other people in any way I can while following my heart and simply feeling good about decisions I am making and most certainly feeling the pleasures of watching someone else grow out of their misery and unhappiness to actually have values in their own life....all because I have faith in a God of hope. Well if I die and then I find the truth is not what I was hoping for....what harm was done by me or my beliefs and my blind faith? Whats the real risk here really?
Greg, you mentioned that us christians are just scared people...that very much does apply to me as I am scared, I am scared of evil, I am scared of my own evil, I am scared of my own will, I am scared of failing, I am scared of hurting people, I am scared for other people and I will gladly and willingly "hide" behind my savior in Jesus Christ and let him strengthen and comfort me. I don't have to do all this life stuff alone anymore and I am beginning to really feel like I have a purpose in this world.
So, I want to thank you because your questions actually steared me back to the bible once again and gave me more of a desire to study and learn and grow closer to God. I was originally going to continue this whole debate and type in answers to some of your questions that I found some answers to but, I decided not to as I realized that if I could find them, you most certainly can to for yourself if you truely have the desire and a willing open heart.
Doesn't matter what info I find and post....if you believe that my beliefs are wrong and that yours are right...it won't matter what I put. But to me, it sounds a lot like you found your own higher power.....You. I am not in any way trying to bash you or insult you by saying that either, that is your God given choice. I tried that avenue for a long long time and my "holy self" failed me everytime, but perhaps you are different...what do I know. I hope and pray that all of you find the answers you all seek in your own hearts.
And Therion,
I have felt and feel your pain man and will keep you in my prayors.
Sincerely,
Scott Davis