:smile: to the anonymous writer!! oh wow, u hit it on the nose! i hated christmas at elan...my parents didnt know what to get me..music..cant send her...could send subliminal messages, sexy cute clothes, no not aloud in elan, makeup and jewlry --??why its elan? money...nah cant have that..so what the fuck would i get??? EXACTLLY what u said!! LLBEAN CLOTHES...thick, bulky, ugly llbean sweaters, boots, mittens!! or a book or something. and i only got like 3 presents..(sorry I am a super BRAT, I GET LIKE tons of gifts) so i was feeling...arg... :cry2: and there were GIers...here and there...and like the nervous all stresssed out expeditor taking headcounts, and the CR all tense and stressed ordering everything..(how unrelaxed was that!) and the SHITTY pink raw chicken or turkey I dont remember what we had? After putting myself in a temporary wonderland...trying to imagine that ELAN was just a dream....i woke up with my name being called to knock for the book, for a fucking VERBAL repremand... and forced to sit at those fucking ugly wooden tables... and christmas lasting like 20 fucking minutes..and then back to...scrubbing, cleaning, a clean spot etc etc..SO
thank god!!!! I CAN GO OUTSIDE WHENEVER I WANT AND SMOKE A CIGGY, I CAN PEE WHEN I WANT TO PEE, I CANT EAT WHEN I WANT TO EAT, I CAN SPEND MONEY WHEN I WANT, I CANT TALK TO WHOM EVER I WANT WHENEVER I WANT, I CAN SLEEP TILL WHENEVER I WANT, i can look at all the cute guys and do and say whatever i want to them & manipulate them whenever! I can sleep WITH HOW EVER MANY LAYERS OF CLOTHES, AS MANY SHEETS, TILL WHENEVER I WANT, I CAN GO OUTSIDE WHENEVER I WANT, I DONT HAVE TO ASK FOR PERMISSION EVERYTIME I CROSS A CORNER OF MY HOUSE, I HAVE SHOE LACES IN ALL MY SHOES!, I CAN WEAR ANY CLOTHING I WANT, I CAN HAVE A CRAZY HAIR COLOR, A PIERCING, WHATEVER!!! I AM MOST THANKFUL FOR ALL THAT, AND THAT I HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP AT HOME,AND THAT I AM AN ELAN *S*U*R*V*I*V*O*R*!!!
