Hey everyone. Ive been in NJ for a week visiting with my kids. I live in Florida and they live here in NJ with their dad. I've already gotten shit for this decision from some people on here, so i really dont want anymore...but i will explain my reasons again. The education system in florida sucks. the elementary education at least. my kids are doing so well here its ridiculous. my son was diagnosed with adhd within 3 weeks of being here and is on a mild dose of medication and is now getting straight a's when in florida he was failing and they held him back in kindergarten etc. talking about geting him evaluated and never doing a damn thing about it. my 3 girls are doing extremely well also. their father and i decided to get a divorce a year and a half ago and i moved back to fl. he lives in a house his parents own and he has to pay almost no bills as he is also taking care of them because they are in their late 70's and neither drive and are both not healthy. he's a wonderful father and is doing very well with them. i unfortunately cannot afford to live in NJ because as we all know it is way too overpriced. we all want to end up in florida eventually so i moved. id rather miss my kids and have them get a better education.
but now is the time i have to leave them again. i leave tomorow morning. i was doing fine all week until tonight. i hate this. ive cried all night about leaving being mad at the ex husb, his worthless brother who is doing nothing to help the parents so marty could move, and at myself for being so irresponsible with money all my life to where i can barely afford to visit my kids much less move them all back to florida.
id love to blame my time in KIDS for my irresponsibility with money but thats ridiculous. of course id love to blame anything and everything on newton...lol.
i dont really know why im writing all this tonight except that you guys were who i talked to for years about my "feelings" and i really have nobody else to talk to. i know others here are separated from their children, so i assume ya'll know how i feel. this kills me to leave. i hate it here in nj, except for the fact that my kids are here. we have figured out that by april of next year i will have the money to either move back here, or move them down there, but marty cant leave his parents. so unless his situation changes (meaning dad passes away [and i DONT wish that to happen] and he can move to FL) I'm moving back to nj in april. i hate it here. plus i have a life in florida and a boyfriend that i dont want to leave but obviously my kids come first. ive never been so emotional in my life.
good lord...i dont know what else to say. i hate to end this on a bad note, but if anyone has ANY advice please....let me know.
thanks for listening.
