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Offline kaydeejaded

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« on: October 31, 2003, 09:55:00 PM »
if anyone is wondering why I am home I bailed out and didn't go. but that is a different story

I just said to my parents that the Straight Boston was closed down for representing an RN as a Psyciatrist (sp?) to the child protective people of Mass. and they said well at least it was an RN and not an LPN.

I hate them I hate that they still have the power to make me cry. I hate that they don't care and that I still want them too. They never gave a fuck. Everyone I know always tries to convince me that they did and I try to believe it too sometimes but they don't. I hate them I feel so young right now so raw and alone. I will never be like them. Who could do something like that and feel no remorse.

I thought I was done crying over this fucking place. I wish something would happen so that they would suffer like I did, but I would probably save their fucking asses like a moron.

For the community to have 10% to 25% of its men unable to vote or unable to access credit or other privileges of citizenship for the rest of their lives in some states creates a permanently diminished
group within society.
http://www.urban.org/authors/travis.html' target='_new'>Jeremy Travis, Urban Institute

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« Reply #1 on: October 31, 2003, 10:01:00 PM »
as I sit here on the computer my father the fucking bastard comes and tells me he thinks I should stay off the computer

I just hate everything I fucking hate everything

who was I in my past life? I am getting massive karmic return this time around

Our youth can not understand why society chooses to criminalize a behavior with so little visible ill effect or adverse social impact... These young people have jumped the fence and found no cliff.

http://www.druglibrary.org/schaffer/library/studies/nc/ncmenu.htm' target='_new'>Commission on Marihuana and Drug Abuse

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« Reply #2 on: October 31, 2003, 10:07:00 PM »
WTF!!

We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark.  The real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.  
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« Reply #3 on: October 31, 2003, 10:35:00 PM »
I understand,your not alone.bt will get through it ! I don`t think it will ever leave us.
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« Reply #4 on: November 01, 2003, 12:11:00 AM »
Kady, You will persevere. I hope that at least some of your Halloween was ok. Maybe you ought to get away from your parents for a little while...
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« Reply #5 on: November 01, 2003, 09:40:00 AM »
really katey. I can't imagine being around my mom and dad all the time.

Toxic people will make you toxic. Get the fuck away from your parents, and like a good grown up child, call them every now and then.

Otherwise, you are doomed to play this bullshit out for the rest of your life.

There is a better than good chance your parents may never cop to what they did. Stop looking for it. Look inside yourself for the strength to forgive them for their weaknesses and the strenth to stand on your own.

GOOD LUCK

It continues to amaze me to talk to law students -- college
graduates all and smarter than the average bear -- who will
seriously tell me about how dangerous mj is and how it
destroys the lives of those who use it and who, in the
very next sentence, will tell me how they and their
friends -- now CPAs, engineers, med students -- used
pot regularly through high school and college.  And
they don't see the contradiction between these statements.

We're not just talking ignorance here -- we are talking
deep down, serious, religious indoctrination.


--Buford C. Terrell, Professor of Law, South Texas College of Law

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« Reply #6 on: November 01, 2003, 12:43:00 PM »
A-Men! I really envy ppl who've been able to patch things up with their families to the point where it's worth it. And I'm sooooo grateful to have had a decent relationship with my dad. But if your family is anything like the rest of my family, cut and run, gal! Cut and run! They're always much nicer and prettier from a little distance.

Give me the youth, and Germany will rule the world.
--Hitler

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« Reply #7 on: November 01, 2003, 01:17:00 PM »
here is the deal with that. I would be so out of there but after my divorce I had to move back with my son. I am trying to finish school and get the fuck out.

I need to find an alternative, they are basically like, we babysit while you go to school, you live here that's the deal.

I am so nervous to find another babysitter and work it all out. A cop-out and not a good one. I am going to take radical steps to change the present situation.

You are right. I am searching for something that will never be found here with them.

Those who control the past, control the future; and those who control the present, control the past.

--George Orwell

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« Reply #8 on: November 01, 2003, 01:40:00 PM »
Boy do I know where you are comming from..
My parents are the Toxic poster Parents.
I send you wishes of a wonderful new beginning.
And when I feel Pissed at Mel et al. I usualy send off a letter or two to another person on my long list of people with site links ect and hope the word finaly hits the right person.
Peace and love sammie
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« Reply #9 on: November 09, 2003, 10:15:00 PM »
kill them kill them
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