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If you had the chance to confront your abusers would you? Would it matter to you if they were somehow able to understand or be moved to authentic remorse? Would it mean less if they weren’t? Would it be cathartic to just say it or scream the truth of it out loud?

Would that release from you some of what was left in you? Would that release you from any of that?

If it seemed you might be able to spare just one other person from them by naming the dragon, even if the consequences were costly, would you?
How much of what you have spent of yourself and accrued in the time since then would you be willing to sacrifice for something like satisfaction?

I’ve lost my voice today.
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #1 on: June 29, 2009, 01:50:52 PM »
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If you had the chance to confront your abusers would you?

Nope. I stopped caring. Have no idea how it happened, but it just did.

Doesn't mean I wouldnt want to ask a few key players some questions on the history of the place... just to fill in some blanks as to how our particular duck farm took root.
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #2 on: June 29, 2009, 03:19:41 PM »
It might well depend on just what your damage is. Some damage is easier to live with or get past. Other damage stays with you and haunts you 'till the end of your days.
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #3 on: June 29, 2009, 03:23:49 PM »
I'm tired of being tormented to hell, that's what I'm tired of.  :fuckoff:
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #4 on: June 29, 2009, 03:43:46 PM »
Quote from: "Screaming into the wind"

Would that release from you some of what was left in you? Would that release you from any of that?

 would you be willing to sacrifice for something like satisfaction?

I’ve lost my voice today.

...that missing point was just here a while ago...
Some problems never resolve themselves. Some solutions come with their own problems.
The strength of one’s resolve, that is the crux of the revenge fantasy.
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #5 on: June 29, 2009, 04:03:14 PM »
Quote from: "Screaming into the wind"
If you had the chance to confront your abusers would you? Would it matter to you if they were somehow able to understand or be moved to authentic remorse? Would it mean less if they weren’t? Would it be cathartic to just say it or scream the truth of it out loud?

Would that release from you some of what was left in you? Would that release you from any of that?

If it seemed you might be able to spare just one other person from them by naming the dragon, even if the consequences were costly, would you?
How much of what you have spent of yourself and accrued in the time since then would you be willing to sacrifice for something like satisfaction?

I’ve lost my voice today.

I did.  It was great.  They obviously feel no remorse, so I have no answer to that part of your question.

Huh?  "Naming the dragon"?   I think I'll call him "Fred"............

How much of myself, etc.?   Again, not sure what you mean by that..........but it was fucking great confronting Miller and Ruth Ann Newton, and I recommend it to all victims of programs like Straight, Etc.
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #6 on: June 29, 2009, 04:13:26 PM »
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Quote from: "Screaming into the wind"
If you had the chance to confront your abusers would you? Would it matter to you if they were somehow able to understand or be moved to authentic remorse? Would it mean less if they weren’t? Would it be cathartic to just say it or scream the truth of it out loud?

Would that release from you some of what was left in you? Would that release you from any of that?

If it seemed you might be able to spare just one other person from them by naming the dragon, even if the consequences were costly, would you?
How much of what you have spent of yourself and accrued in the time since then would you be willing to sacrifice for something like satisfaction?

I’ve lost my voice today.



Huh?  "Naming the dragon"?   I think I'll call him "Fred"............

That's very a Holly Go Lightly name for your dragon.
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #7 on: June 29, 2009, 04:48:55 PM »
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RaJAxdGe ... re=related
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #8 on: June 29, 2009, 09:48:10 PM »
:soapbox:


I, for one, have yet to confront my "abuser". But, the "person" is not a part of my life now. They have been removed from it completely. I left their "authority" when I was 17 and stopped speaking to them 2 years ago. They claim to not understand why they have been locked out....I beg to differ. If they don't know, shame on them. They did it for my whole life and I didn't have the b@lls to call the authorities. I was brainwashed to think I was ignorant and foolish. but, I knew deep down inside I was the better person. When I got older, I tried to tell them how I felt. They called it "disrespect" I called it provoking...  Emotional and psychological abuse is unacceptable from anyone TO anyone.  May they have a lousy life and never hurt anyone else ever again....

oh and if they ever try to re-enter my life or contact me  :on phone:   ....there will be on h3ll of a confrontation with enough 4 letter words to last till the end of time.



You get the point.   Okay, I'm done.   :seg:
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #9 on: June 29, 2009, 10:06:24 PM »
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:soapbox:


I, for one, have yet to confront my "abuser". But, the "person" is not a part of my life now. They have been removed from it completely. I left their "authority" when I was 17 and stopped speaking to them 2 years ago. They claim to not understand why they have been locked out....I beg to differ. If they don't know, shame on them. They did it for my whole life and I didn't have the b@lls to call the authorities. I was brainwashed to think I was ignorant and foolish. but, I knew deep down inside I was the better person. When I got older, I tried to tell them how I felt. They called it "disrespect" I called it provoking...  Emotional and psychological abuse is unacceptable from anyone TO anyone.  May they have a lousy life and never hurt anyone else ever again....

oh and if they ever try to re-enter my life or contact me  :on phone:   ....there will be on h3ll of a confrontation with enough 4 letter words to last till the end of time.



You get the point.   Okay, I'm done.   :seg:

Are you talking about a program? Many of us would have "left their authority" at 17, but for the fact we were literally prisoners, so that became impossible. How did you manage to leave anyone's authority who held you prisoner?
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #10 on: June 29, 2009, 10:09:20 PM »
a "parental figure" that "raised" me.

I went to college.... to get away from them.
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #11 on: June 29, 2009, 10:15:12 PM »
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May they have a lousy life and never hurt anyone else ever again....
I hope so
Quote from: "Guest"
Are you talking about a program? Many of us would have "left their authority" at 17, but for the fact we were literally prisoners, so that became impossible. How did you manage to leave anyone's authority who held you prisoner?

I’m hoping that response wasn’t meant to sound obtuse. The original post was stated as such that the source of the abuse was not necessarily restricted specifically to program abusers.
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #12 on: June 29, 2009, 10:41:53 PM »
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Quote from: "fornitsfriend"
May they have a lousy life and never hurt anyone else ever again....
I hope so
Quote from: "Guest"
Are you talking about a program? Many of us would have "left their authority" at 17, but for the fact we were literally prisoners, so that became impossible. How did you manage to leave anyone's authority who held you prisoner?

I’m hoping that response wasn’t meant to sound obtuse. The original post was stated as such that the source of the abuse was not necessarily restricted specifically to program abusers.

I also hope you are also trying not to be obtuse. Fornitsfreind has a weird posting history that makes me question it agenda, and p.o.v. “Getting on with it” is impossible when you are literally held prisoner, yet “just get over it” is the sentiment expressed by industry representatives and sympathizers when its victims report harm. Hence my statement.
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #13 on: June 29, 2009, 10:52:02 PM »
Quote from: "Guest"
Quote from: "Inculcated"
Quote from: "fornitsfriend"
May they have a lousy life and never hurt anyone else ever again....
I hope so
Quote from: "Guest"
Are you talking about a program? Many of us would have "left their authority" at 17, but for the fact we were literally prisoners, so that became impossible. How did you manage to leave anyone's authority who held you prisoner?

I’m hoping that response wasn’t meant to sound obtuse. The original post was stated as such that the source of the abuse was not necessarily restricted specifically to program abusers.

I also hope you are also trying not to be obtuse. Fornitsfreind has a weird posting history that makes me question it agenda, and p.o.v. “Getting on with it” is impossible when you are literally held prisoner, yet “just get over it” is the sentiment expressed by industry representatives and sympathizers when its victims report harm. Hence my statement.
 I don’t see anything like “just get over it” in FF’s post. I’m not familiar with the content of their other posts (except the Stuff you’ve been listening to thread, today. That was worth hearing IMO)
 :peace:
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Re: Would it feel right or just or even just feel fucking good?
« Reply #14 on: January 16, 2012, 05:01:01 PM »
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Quote from: "Guest"
Quote from: "Inculcated"
Quote from: "fornitsfriend"
May they have a lousy life and never hurt anyone else ever again....
I hope so
Quote from: "Guest"
Are you talking about a program? Many of us would have "left their authority" at 17, but for the fact we were literally prisoners, so that became impossible. How did you manage to leave anyone's authority who held you prisoner?

I’m hoping that response wasn’t meant to sound obtuse. The original post was stated as such that the source of the abuse was not necessarily restricted specifically to program abusers.

I also hope you are also trying not to be obtuse. Fornitsfreind has a weird posting history that makes me question it agenda, and p.o.v. “Getting on with it” is impossible when you are literally held prisoner, yet “just get over it” is the sentiment expressed by industry representatives and sympathizers when its victims report harm. Hence my statement.
 I don’t see anything like “just get over it” in FF’s post. I’m not familiar with the content of their other posts (except the Stuff you’ve been listening to thread, today. That was worth hearing IMO)
 :peace:
Your thoughtful and considerate response makes me realize I should not be so quick to judge.  :'(  :shamrock:  :rose:
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