Anonymous...thank you for posting again. I am sorry that I said what I said. I should have asked your side prior to posting.
I understand what you have said & what you mean. I agree with what you said! My life has gone on. It has taken a while for me to get away from the obsession and the anger I feel towards Newton. I have a wonderful life now...4 kids, a wonderful husband, a great career etc. The nightmares have stopped for the most part, and I think that has to do with the fact that I HAVE dealt with it for so many years. I know people from KIDS that refuse to deal with it. They have made up imaginary lives for themselves to tell people about when people ask about their childhoods. That to me is sad. That to me means that he is still running their lives.
I made this website for just that reason. And also for the reason to put up these articles, and things I know about Newton so that others can understand the man that he is. They say that understanding your captors helps you to let go. I also made this site for people to "reunite" with others that they have wondered about for years possibly. Maybe it's just my own nosiness. But the thing I have found is that I can talk to people who were NOT in KIDS till I'm blue in the face and they will never understand it. Talking to others who were in there, to others who understand & go through the same nightmares, fears etc that we go through helps me to overcome those nightmares & fears.
I also feel that giving us a presence on the web might possibly help a parent who is looking to put their child into a place like this NOT to if they read what happened to us. In fact I know of some instances in which this very thing has happened on other sites like this one.
Again, I am sorry I spoke so soon. I am sorry for your nightmare you had the other night. I hope my earlier post doesn't hinder your posting here again. :grin:
[ This Message was edited by: Webmistress on 2002-04-01 23:05 ]