ahhhhh... Mastering the art of mustering the strength to just go on, one of lifes many but essential lessons. Should I first say I empathize with your plight, irreversable loss is just one of those things that has the power to knock you on your ass regardless of your level of personal strength. I cant imagine what it would feel like to lose something as imporant as a loved one, or home or physical function, but I can understand how hard living with that can be. As the poster before me mentioned, you may be surprised how much strength you gain from this unfortunate experience, however I dont think that means that you arent allowed to seek comfort and support for these hard times. You may find that just expressing yourself, and even allowing yourself to feel and grasp the gravity of your pain can help you to cycle through the stages of greif a little quicker. No one can expect you to simply get over the things that are hurting you but learning how to process it and cope is key. Some of us have some hands on experience, so if you feel comfortable doing so feel free to contact someone privately and I'm sure you will be able to find a shoulder to lean on in your time of need. I'm here, and I vouche for a few others on this site who are genuine, so if you need a friend dont hesitate to ask. In the meantime just try to think happy thoughts, give yourself time to escape to a peaceful quite place in your mind, like a "happy place" and just take it easy. Chin up, this too shall pass.
All my love and best wishes
