some of the staff were nice, but very few would let things slide. mainly the ACs (assistant counselors) were ok. they were mostly north georgia college students, a few local military people on leave, and a few average joes who just happen to work there. unfortunately (and fortunately, also) there was a very quick turnover rate for those people - they quickly became disillusioned with the place and did not want to be part of it. i'm not going to name names but there were a few very, very good people there. they would do quite a bit to make your stay more comfortable if you got on their good side. it was a 50/50 good/bad.
some of the kids were really screwed up when they left. as mentioned before in another thread recently, they either go into a very highly structured environment like the military or they fall into drugs really hardcore. most are fine, eventually. of the kids that go back into drugs most spend a few years doing that and then mature and move on with their lives. it's not that you are exactly SCREWED UP from the place. it's like this: when you are there, you are fed this bullshit reality, bullshit identity. as soon as you leave, you realize it was all a lie. so you start shedding parts...pieces of your mentality and identity forced on you at HLA. you try to catch up with your peers, experience things you missed while at HLA. eventually, you become a normal individual. the only problem is that the anxiety caused by living in that environment stays with you no matter what you do. going into nostalgic tangents where all you can think about is how much you hate HLA and anything to do with it or similar to it is common among most people. thats why fornits exists. OR you abandon your self of self and resign to the created identity they gave you.
i made our fine i guess. i abandoned everything they taught me, and found myself. it took many years of sitting around doing drugs though, but i turned out ok. I learned quite well how to manipulate people, situations, and get what i want through HLA - that i did not abandon.
i do keep in touch with some people. not very tight relationships, but friends still.
the worst part of my stay is the total mindfuck of it all. they force you to think things that you do not believe, so you have to pretend you actually believe their bullshit in order to stay comfortable and out of trouble. eventually you start becoming the lie, like an actor so immersed in his character he looses his sense of self. you have to be very carefull about what you say and do. also, because of the fallout system you were always fighting for trust with the counselors, and always suspect of your peers; while at the same time trying to earn the trust of your peers and fighting the suspicions of your counselors. HLA was also very unpredictable. you never know when someone is going to do something that you end up being involved in somehow that gets you in trouble. it was a constant fight to maintain appearances while trying to remain true to yourself. you never got any real rest from it all, there was never any real peace. there is a constant political cold war going on between students, between staff, and between students and staff. kids are always trying to find dirt on other kids to earn respect from counselors, or do things against the rules to earn respect from peers. kids were always probing and testing other kids and staff to find their buttons, their weak points, how far they can go with them, and to see how they can be used. people are always scheming against each other. it was a constant fight to stay out of it all. to survive you have to be extremely tactful and manipulative.