I feel the same at times, And as much as this site has helped me out , I`ve become obscesed with checking in.It`s this whole other world that most people don`t know about me. I have friends that say , "remember in high school...bla,bla,bla...." And they laugh and remember things and I can`t relate . I was locked up in "KIDS" all those years and it sucks to keep it to myself because they don`t know ! How do you explain 5,6,7... years of your life living in a F**king whearhouse !!! Motaviting?!?, never seeing family, no doctors, dentists, movies, books,I did not even know their was a new President of the United States and we are suppost to live in a free country !!!
What the hell!!! I feel different in the world at times because of these things ,but I have also learned I have the POWER now to make my life the way I want it , I CAN CHANGE ! And that it very powerful for me to clam.It`s okay to feel these things, they will always be there. But I don`t have to fall into Millers shit and believe I`ll be nothing with out him and his culties. I have proven there is no reality to them.And you have all helped me learn that there is life after KIDS, a better life. It`s also just as important to aknowledge the damage done while in KIDS and then draw strenght from that by moving on in my life now. I am !!!!!!!!!
Have a great day, We are free...enjoy it !