If you were at rockly you might understand or you might not part of me really doesnt care i was just revisiting the past and wanted to post this.
The pain is paralyzing,
My body shivers and I feel like I will never move again.
What is it that gives me this pain.
I wish it was an actual pain,
But its not it's the pain of where I am.
An institution, and asylum, a psychiatric ward.
But they don't call it any of these names,
They call it a school,
They call it Rocklyn Academy.
A place where I lose my sanity.
I can admit I had some problems,
Before I came here.
But I don't think that they even compare anymore,
I didn't get along with my parents, I had sex,
I look back now I know how it was all nothing.
But now I've been sucked into this place.
And when I go home not only is it,
The sex, and the arguments,
But it is the drugs, the alcohol, and the incapacity of dealing with people anymore.
This place may have helped me a little in one way,
But it has ruined me for the rest of my life in so many other ways.
Forever I will remember haunting memories of this place and they will never go away.
The crying eyes of a child,
Screaming in their first few weeks,
That their parents will come get them,
And actually believing it.
But their parents like everyone else's do not come.
So they feel that they have nothing else to live for,
And are all alone in the world,
For their parents obviously don't want them anymore,
And if they did why would they send them here.
Blood drips from their wrists,
And I watch it fall onto the floor,
As they scream
I hate it here, why do my parents hate me.
Did I really hurt them this badly?
That they had to do this to me.
After a while you realize they don't hate you,
They just don't understand.
They don't understand,
What we see,
What we hear,
But even more importantly what we feel.
The Pain is paralyzing,
And it is the only thing we all have in common.
And yet we do not help each other.
This place has killed souls,
Souls of some beautiful and amazing young women.
The strong ones will prevail once they have left.
But some have been destroyed forever,
And some have lost the beauty of innocence that they once had,
And gained the beauty of a dark hart with its mystery and pain.
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Rocklyn The good
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If you were at rockly you might understand or you might not part of me really doesnt care i was just revisiting the past and wanted to post this.
There is a place in the world that teaches you the most necessary tools of life
At this place everyone learns, no one is excluded
We are all equal in the fact that without every single person we would be incomplete.
Rocklyn is the place that teaches you
The difference between who you are and who you want to become
It's the place where you will meet your greatest fears
And learn to defeat them without your family or your friends
You say why would I need or want to do that,
Because it will teach you to be the best you can be
And that you can accomplish anything.
It's always funny to see the new girls come in
They say with their heads held high
I have no problems I don't know why I'm here
Some times they are the ones with the most problems.
But even if their problems are less than others they are still there.
This is also great for the girls
Who have now seen that they do have problems and are not perfect.
It shows them how they used to be.
Then there are the rules.
Which most truly do not like,
But you learn to put up with them
And one day you realize that,
Even though you still may not like them there is good reasoning behind them
And they are there to actually help you not to hinder you.
But then there is the part of Rocklyn that even the staff can not help with, the gossip.
The gossip, is the worst part of Rocklyn,
Not, not being able to talk to your friends and family,
Not, not being able to eat what ever and whenever you want,
Not, not being able to smoke,
Not anything else that you may have a problem with.
It's the gossip, the gossip that everyone does
Whether it be the oh my god I don't like her because of this this and this,
Or even the oh my god she gossips so much she said this about you and that about you.
The, why can't we all just get along
Why do "they" always have to cause problems and gossip I really don't like her because she does that.
It's all just a load of B.S.
Honestly I don't think that we could all get along perfectly
For one were not here because we are the perfect children of the world
Two who said and why do we have to like everyone
Must we like the people who do things we think are wrong
Or who we have tried to not be like or get away from before coming here
I think the answer is no.
So am I happy that I came to Rocklyn?
Do I think it was worth it?
Yes for where I would be today if I had not come here
I don't know if I even want to think about that.
So thank you Rocklyn for our teachers and our students
For the people we like and those that we don't
For the things we don't understand quite yet
And the things that shine like the sun on a clear blue day.
The world is becoming a better place because of you Rocklyn and what you teach us.
