i dont sign my posts for a reason but ill consider it to avoid confusion but this confusion helps drive discussions sometimes. I dont mind being slagged off like the next posted you know? One reason I don't sign in is because that I am a "survivor"... yeah so what.. whatever that means (obviously we are all, we are all alive right through bullshit crap in our lives), but the conversation can be unnecessarily tame, the responses seemingly censored, because of that weird habit of usernames to not go ape shit on survivors here... its not.. politically correct I guess? It's boring to wrap myself in that safety of that political distinction. if I did or wanted to I would plaster my posts wtih pictures of the hobbit, links to my blog, and bold titles with I AM A SURVIVOR OF AN ABUSIVE PROGRAM FEEL BAD FOR ME. and I love a good discussion on things so I post as guest... you know what I mean? I am not trying to deceive I just don't want to be talked to with kid gloves, this conversation topic is way too real for the conversation to be anything but..you know?. this forum would be kick ass if people just posted what they thought at the time without really thinking about it wouldnt it? look how many people view and say nothing.. why is that? one reason I am not over this shit yet is because nobody wants to talk about it... at least not any deeper than they feel comfortable with .. which isnt very , usually..so no the hitler thing doesnt offend me because mostly its just overused today everyone uses it.. i just dont get offended bya lot of that kind of stuff but others are it seems.. the only thing that offended me was offering survivors small amounts of cash which is patronizing but you know what that's fine, but its when you said they had to jump through hoops, and get peer reviews , have a college degree, I just started laughing.. if i put my initials at the bottom of my post chances are I will ever hear what people really think about me.. as an anonymous program survivor amoung many.. you know?