Listen, a couple years ago when I came across this sight called Fornits. I was welcomed in. I felt great knowing that others out there felt the same way I did, and had similar experiences. It had been a very long time since I had thought about my times of placement, and actually had other people that were able to empathize with me. That was a comforting feeling. I was willing to protest, fly wherever, I had no job, and enough money and freedom to get me there, and NOBODY was interested in getting these places shut down. Well, very few, but not seriousley. I tried to get people do make a move to get off their fucking computers, and off their asses to do something, but they wouldn't budge.
Anyway........it just seemed like all people wanted to do was bitch, and moan about their lives, and I let them without saying a word. I gave them the benefit of the doubt, I knew how they felt. As time went on, I was coming to terms with what I had been through personally, and how to take my experiences, and to do something good with them.
It's interesting though.........I do feel that my experiences rank up there with the most severe cases. Abandoned at the age of 12, I had abuse in my childhood, abuse in my placements, god, I used to think will I ever catch a fucking break? But, I got better. You guys here all helped me feel better (until now of course, LOL). You made me feel like I wasn't alone in the world, and from the bottom of my cold self heartless bitch of a heart, I thank you for that.
But, we had are differences. As far as treatment centers were concerned atleast. I'm sorry I called you whiners, and I maybe I said it without thinking? But, it's very hard for me to see the people that where here before me, still be so affected by their youth. I know you know , that there are places out there, that help kids, and that don't hurt them, come on who are we kidding?
If it's your intent is to always have an open door, and heart for those who are struggling with their demons, then I will back off. But, at the same time, don't you want promote these people to heal? I know you have a message to get out, and I do respect that. But, why don't you promote healing so these teens, and their parents don't feel like such victims? You're throwing a huge pity party, and you're not allowing people to stand strong. Not only that, but if your going to make a difference, throw protests. Do something to call attention to these problems. Don't think google is going to do it all for you! Because they are not.
Then when people try to do something, like Kevin did, you give him all kinds of shit. Maybe he overlooked some things, and maybe you were right about some stuff he was overlooking, and doing incorrectly. But, at least he did something. Atleast he tried. You guys here for the most part (not all), just bitch and moan about had you'd been given a different hand in life, how you would've turned out so differently. Quite frankly, I'm just so sick of hearing that. It's weak.
That's why we've turned out in the end to be so different. That's why you hate me. Because I have rid myself of the pain, and continued on in my life stronger then ever. Why don't you let go of it yourselves, and help others for gods sake, to let go too. But, I guess misery loves company, so you'll keep them in the loop. Anyone like me, you will cast out. Hey, whatever........like I said before, I don't care. I just want other people that come across this site to know that there is an end to all the pain. It does get better. You don't have to live this nightmare forever.
I really don't hate you, and my potty mouth has gotten pretty bad lately, I admit! But, who gives a shit right? We are all just human. Besides, I spend 10 hours a day with 95% men in my workplace. You have no idea actually how much I have been holding back?!! Potty mouth speaking that is!
