This is strange that you are all talking about paranoia. I just last night had a talk with my husband about how paranoid I've (finally) noticed I've been for what seems like forever. I always feel like I've done something wrong, and that other people know it when I don't. And I gotta tell you, I'm a little to boring, mundane and suburban to do much to feel guilty about. But yet, I always feel guilty, sorry. But somethings changed over the past year or so. I Notice it now. I notice that it's not normal, and that I don't have to feel guilty for just being alive and walking the halls at work or waiting on line at the dairy queen. I think being on this website, reading the posts and reality of what happened to us is clearing my head of the last remnants of the brainwashing kids did to me. Either that, or I'm going crazy. It really doesn't matter which, at this point in my life I can handle either outcome. Although crazy IS more comfortable, is it not? :smile: