I AM SO SORRY TO HEAR THAT YOU WANT TO KILL YOUR SELF.I AM ONE OF THE PEOPLE THAT HAVE BEEN TALKED ABOUT AND ALOT OF MEAN THINGS SAID ABOUT ME,BUT HEH IT IS NOT WORTH YOUR LIFE.MAYBE INSTEAD OF YOU GOING TO ELAN YOU SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN HELP SOME WERE DIFFRENT.ALOT OF US WHO WENT TO ELAN IN THE 90'S DID NOT SEE I TO I WITH THE WAY THE PLACE WAS RAN,BUT I MUST SAY ALOT OF US ARE DOING WELL AND HAVE FAMILYS ETC,ETC.WE MAY HAVE MADE MISTAKES WHEN WE FIRST LEFT THAT PLACE BUT WE ARE DOING GOOD.I TALK TO PEOPLE WHO I WENT THERE WITH AND WE ALL HAVE OUR PROBLAMS BUT WE ARE DOING GOOD.TAKE IT FROM ME TRYING TO TAKE YOU LIFE IS NOT THE ANSWER BEEN THER AND DONE THAT.I WOULD GIVE YOU MT EMAIL BUT SOME ASS HOLES ARE TALKING TO MUCH SMACK RIGHT NO,HANG IN THERE HONEY.