H-unH !
So I just now got back from 'ol Colorado. And I'd tell ya more about that 'ceptin' I gotta cut to this chase outta not havin' as many memory cells as I used ta...
But anyway, I was thinkin' about $tr8 'n' all cause I'm pretty interested in what went on there and what the relationships are, say like, between straight and my self and $tr8 and my family members and $tr8 and the people I know who were also in there. Yeah, I really wonder about a lot 'a' shit.
Well, like I wrote on that other thread about goin' up to Boulder and lookin' up an ol' survivor/veteran friend that I used to know. And one of the first things we discussed about $tr8 was what we learned about attachment. Like I hadn't even seen this girl or talked to her in jus' 'bout 20 years and I call her up and tell her I'm in town and she comes to get me and invites me into her house. No contact in nearly 20 years. So this is our first conversation in so long and within minutes of arriving at her place and talking about $tr8 we are discussing attachment to ideas. Mental attachments.
(...shit there is so much I wanna write.)
We know where we learned about that. See now, one of the things that $tr8 did was to strip us of all our mental attachments. That is the breakdown. Now while I understand this, I see that it was not $tr8's intention to free me from attachment, but they intended to unjustly sever me from all of my threatening attachments and rape my ego until they could implant their sick prejudice into me. They broke all my attachments loose from me so that they could easily attach me to the program. They wanted me to be their slave. They wanted to control me even if they would have to live unjust lives to do it. An' I aint no angel, praise Jah, but still I'm sayin'. Their Karma is like way, way heavy.
So like on that other thread that has troubled me now for a year...the one where I was tryin' to say about attachment before...
Yeah...as soon as we got into it, me and my ol' friend there, we immediately went to the whole lesson in attachments thing and came to some general understanding of each other as far as that was concerned. I knew it in the way she looked at me what she understood. And she taught me shit just to be with her, in her presence, I mean.
So she was onto the attachment scheme, attachment of subject to object. This is something many people cannot see. I was jus' talkin' with another survivor friend 'a' mine who's jus' an ol' friend by now, and we discussed the same thing. I mean, I am very interested in this whole subject/object scheme dynamic that seems to be happening all around us all the time. But though I come to finally begin to see it, I remain confused as well... I wouldn't even be postin' about this but for some reason I am. Maybe some one will hear what I'm sayin'.
I think I was already hip to it before $tr8, although I couldn't articulate it I knew about it. I think that not bein' attached to the things that they so patheticly and desperately wanted me to be attached to is what drew their heat anyway. Bein' aware of authority as an illusion and then acting on that knowledge always draws heat. So I end up in $tr8 'cause I won't chase the shit that their puttin' in front of me. So in a way non-attachment is what drew the heat to me in the first place. The Anarchist seeks out the institution as the institution waits knowingly in its dark cave.
I could even let go of a lot of things pretty easily when I first went into $tr8. I wouldn't cut my hair though, for a while. But it wasn't difficult for me to accept that I was bein' held against my will. I knew that before I was in $tr8. I was not attached to my so-called freedom. I was attached to my mind. The trouble came when $tr8 tried to take that; tried to take my mind and strip it. That I did not like. At All. That was a rape. $tr8 inc./Kids Helping Kids/Pathways Family Centers is a criminal organization.
See Straight Incorporated, the criminal organization, now known as The Drug Free America Foundation mind-raped and otherwise mentally brutalized tens of thousands of minors in the United Strates. They did this by exploiting the "subject/object scheme" to their purpose, or so they thought, anyway. $tr8(criminals) made us captives and then severed all our mental attachments from us. From what I understand detachment is the spiritual path. Sometimes I feel like I must'a' aged 100 years in $tr8. I think of the story of the Hindu cat who sat on a hill and carved a stick while civillizations, which he paid no attention to rose and fell.
But see to be detached is good. That is freedom. Is it not ?? How can I be manipulated if I have nothing to win or lose ?? How can I come up empty handed and dissapointed if I am not striving for anything ?? ...So my point after all... is that my experience in $tr8 actually contributed to my understanding of what a mental attachment is and how to recognize it as a chain on me. I mean, yeah, they had every intention of enslaving me forever with their own attachments that they wanted to chain me with. Many people do not see this, the whole mental slavery/mental attachment/subject-object dynamic. Many survivors and veterans don't even see this yet. I think maybe only the seriously oppressed, or something, can see the source of their pain clearly. Mostly the only people I know who do get it are survivors and vets. So this is what I was tryin' to say on that other thread so long ago that's bothered me all this time. I have a weapon that I stole outta under the dragons wing. Have no fear. Do not be attached. Fuck $tr8.
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If you would have justice in this world, then begin to see that a human being is not a means to some end. People are not commodities. When human beings are just to one another government becomes obsolete and real freedom is born; SPIRITUAL ANARCHY.[ This Message was edited by: starry-eyed pirate on 2006-06-05 23:41 ]
