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Offline Anonymous

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« on: April 28, 2006, 06:04:00 PM »
So here I sit ready for a supposed great weekend away when out of the blue - I can't function.  I can't think straight, nothing makes sence, I don't know what I'm doing.  I realize that I'm having a panic attack.  I haven't had one in 10+ yrs.  It's all from reading crap about Straight.  How can that place fuck people up after 20+ years???  How can it suck us back in?  All I can think to do is grap a drink and say fuck that place!  What did they do to us?  What did we allow people to do to us?  And why the FUCK can't I get over this??????
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« Reply #1 on: April 28, 2006, 09:35:00 PM »
Welcome to my world and I'm sure a lot of others. Brainwashing is powerful, especially when the brain is developing at the same time.
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« Reply #2 on: April 28, 2006, 09:39:00 PM »
I get wicked panic attacks after checking in with Straight.

I do advocate a stiff drink and some alone time with your memories. It's good to let it flow for awhile, instead of trying to shut the faucet off.

Also remember that you were lied to. Whatever they said about you, it wasn't true. Just because a teenage cult calls you a drunk/whore/loser/slacker, whatever, DOESN'T mean it's true.

The truth is that Straight was a Republican scheme to reprogram dissidents and people with "charachter disorders'. It was the Gitmo of the Eighties. It happened, it's real, and it's completely fucking illegal. Yes.

The good news is that  your'e alive, and in possesion of the facts now. You have hundreds of people here in this board who know EXACTLY, and I mean EXACTLY how the Oh My God I Was In Fucking Straight for TWO FUCKING YEARS attack goes.

Oh, and we didn't allow people to do this to us. We had no choice.

I'm sending you calm vibes right now.

Peace
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« Reply #3 on: April 28, 2006, 10:27:00 PM »
::fuckoff::
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« Reply #4 on: April 28, 2006, 11:04:00 PM »
Newton, your a fucking nigger. Can't wait to take a big ol' fat shit on your GRAVE, motherfucker...
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« Reply #5 on: April 28, 2006, 11:17:00 PM »
Fuck that -- I say we raid his funeral and set fire to his corpse after dousing it with grain alcohol!! I wanna see that cocksucker go up in FLAMES!!!!!!!
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« Reply #6 on: April 28, 2006, 11:29:00 PM »
I'm right there with ya buddy...and hey if the flames get to be too high we can always piss on him to douse them out a little...

Can't wait 'til that lying sack of shit fucking dies!! And may he suffer greatly before he finally goes... Die, die, DIE....  :skull:  :skull:  :grin:
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« Reply #7 on: April 29, 2006, 06:18:00 PM »
you all are WAY TOO fucked up for it to JUST come from being in a program. holy shit.  it's in your blood and you continue to act and think as fuck ups all on your own.  stop giving the program such credit for your messed up selves.
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« Reply #8 on: April 29, 2006, 06:31:00 PM »
How do you know ???  Do you know these people ??

$tr8 instilled major psychological repression in the young and impressionable minds of its prisoners.

Some days the light is just too diffused to cast a shadow, other days the light creates a strong contrast.
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« Reply #9 on: April 29, 2006, 06:43:00 PM »
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On 2006-04-29 15:18:00, Anonymous wrote:

you all are WAY TOO fucked up for it to JUST come from being in a program. holy shit.  it's in your blood and you continue to act and think as fuck ups all on your own.  stop giving the program such credit for your messed up selves."

Newton was an ignoramus and a fraud! :exclaim:

It's "in our blood"? :roll:
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« Reply #10 on: April 29, 2006, 06:49:00 PM »
I see your point.  Things just aren't that black an' white though.  The program instilled major psychological repression.  

The other night I was walkin' up the well lit street when I noticed a womans' legs first, and then the rest of her on the sidewalk across the street from me, about 70' away. I wanted to look again and see if she noticed me but I didn't look.  I wanted to, and knew it was alright but couldn't bring myself to look.  I kept my head down and kept walkin' and wondered; 'from whence the influence to cage my nature'.  I remembered bein' in $tr8 and not bein' allowed to look at the girls, but stealin' 'em anyway.  I want intimacy without looking, in a way.  I want the girls on the girls side.  I wondered WTF ??  I imagined my eyes openin'.  I thought I understood some of my crazy behavior.

I hope someone sees something.
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« Reply #11 on: April 29, 2006, 07:39:00 PM »
Next time you get a panic attack, smoke a fatty.

As for the rest of it, I don't want to think about it.
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« Reply #12 on: April 30, 2006, 12:23:00 PM »
Hey Luke,

I see by your signature that you are only 16 now and that you were rescued from some crazy treatment center.  I'm 37 now but I was in $tr8 when I was 16-18/19(including aftercare).  What do you mean by "rescued" ??  I'm curious.  

I wish someone would have rescued me.  Once my so-called "druggie friends" actually came to the building and stood at the end of the dirveway to the parking lot.  Staff had somehow been advised sometime earlier in the day that there might be some kind of a rescue attempt for me.  I was even told about it at the same time that my oldcomer was told about it.  The host parents were warned not to stop the car on the way out of the parking lot and I was warned not to try anything.  As the car I was in approached the end of the driveway I could see about 5 of my friends standing there, some leaning on their car trying to identify which vehicle I was in.  They never saw me.  We drove right by.  I was compliant at the time but silently distraught.  I was held prisoner by $tr8 inc for 2 years.
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« Reply #13 on: April 30, 2006, 01:17:00 PM »
Let's just say that the place I was in got shut down by the authorities, and leave it at that.
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« Reply #14 on: April 30, 2006, 02:11:00 PM »
Okay...all the best.
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