On my f-in nerves

[Anonymous]

his freakin site is a cool thing for us to have - but it gets on my nerves just the same.  Everyone suspicious and out to confront.  How f-in damaged are we anyway?  Our life SUCKED big time, for some months, some yrs, some a decade and then some.  Its like a movie.  Surreal.  Too hard to explain to "normal"  people.  And yet so many  here in US and abroad have lived thru so much worse and it is commonplace.  I'm so sick of being the one with the "story."  Yeah, I made it, I am a productive part of society - FUCK YOU MILLER _ YUP - 10-15 yrs out and I live to tell - not a druggie or an alcoholic but a person with a job and a family and a life.  But this shit haunts me and that pisses me the f*ck off.  Stupid parents.  I pity them, I know why they were taken in - but Geez Louise - how freakin stupid were they?  You have hard times growing up - divorced parents, druggie parents, poor families - you get to bitch and complain about these "legit" damages.  This story just makes me feel like a freak and like people change their opinion of me when they hear it.  It was so unfair.  I hate that it still lives deep in me and I RESENT IT!  
Venting. :scared:

[Anonymous]

Feel Better now?   :smile:

[Anonymous]

I feel the same at times, And as much as this site has helped me out , I`ve become obscesed with checking in.It`s this whole other world that most people don`t know about me. I have friends that say , "remember in high school...bla,bla,bla...." And they laugh and remember things and I can`t relate . I was locked up in "KIDS" all those years and it sucks to keep it to myself because they don`t know ! How do you explain 5,6,7... years of your life living in a F**king whearhouse !!! Motaviting?!?, never seeing family, no doctors, dentists, movies, books,I did not even know their was a new President of the United States and we are suppost to live in a free country !!!
What the hell!!! I feel different in the world at times because of these things ,but I have also learned I have the POWER now to make my life the way I want it , I CAN CHANGE ! And that it very powerful for me to clam.It`s okay to feel these things, they will always be there. But I don`t have to fall into Millers shit and believe I`ll be nothing with out him and his culties. I have proven there is no reality to them.And you have all helped me learn that there is life after KIDS, a better life. It`s also just as important to aknowledge the damage done while in KIDS and then draw strenght from that by moving on in my life now. I am !!!!!!!!!
Have a great day, We are free...enjoy it !

[Anonymous]

Thank you - I feel fine. He WILL get his - soon....

[Anonymous]

I agree, he will get his, but consider this...he already has in many ways. He's had to eplain himself to his parish leaders, he's had to pay out to his vitcoms, and he's been forced to admit guilt of his actions by the courts back in what was it, 2000, 2001...by being found guilty. Do not think for a second he is blind to the damage he has done - he knows. He will not, I suspect, feel the guilt or remorse for his actions, because he is simply a bad person, a toxic being.
But he suffers daily, I am sure. Remember, there is always the chance he will live out the rest of his days without paying further for his crimes...but he will never have found the truth and beauty of life that we have available to us, the true POWER we have to reap the benefits of life.  He's denied himself such things. Pitiful, that's what he and his wife are. Pitiful. That's something you will never be.